Worst day EVER.

Sometimes, no matter how much you try your hardest, if it wasn't meant to be, it will never be.

TODAY, was one of the many days in 2014 I could never forget. You know that feeling of excitement and nervousness all in one, and then bad news sets in and you felt like your whole body just under went liposuction? (eventhough I have not actually done one)

Well, that was how I felt today, my hubby was supposed to be on board a plane to California tonight but because he wasn't able to attend a Commission on Foreign Overseas (CFO) seminar on family and marital life, he wasn't able to be cleared at the Philippine immigration counter and therefore forfeited his whole expensive ticket to LA. For a stupid #CFO sticker.... one of the many money making useless laws Philippines have, my husband won't be able to spend holidays with me. No wonder Philippines is called a corrupt country and it will always be.

Emigrants coming to America don't need to be lectured on how to run a family. I might be mad so I don't see no purpose on this, but to be thrown offboard just for this stupid family seminars that take only 4hours to complete and cost 400php and all you get is a sticker saying you attended, is a sure waste of time. They don't need it here in America. America can care less about this stupid shit, they have other important things to worry about.

Plane ticket refunded? NO. Rebooked? YES, but with a fine of 7,000php for non use. See what I mean? Everything is money-making in Philippines. And to think I was born there. How unfortunate.

Nakakahiya.

Overjoyed.

Manila US embassy interview is finally done! He did it. Oh my one of our happy moments and counting today. I'm so happy! Second to the last step is over with, now he is just waiting for his green card visa and we can finally be together, for good.

This is how we love.... expensive! hahaha! I'm hoping he can spend Christmas here but the visa takes at least 2 weeks so I don't think he can make in time for the holidays. It would be super nice to spend our first Christmas together as a couple though. Our deal was, if his visa comes before Christmas, he will spend it here, if not then he will come after Christmas, well not much of a choice there is it? :)

I'm just thankful to our God the Father for making all things possible for us and for our love. Never in a million years did I expect a LOVE like this. Everything in life has its time and place. Ours is now. 

RUBY

Due to the storm, RUBY that hit parts of the Philippines this weekend, my hubby's set interview today, Dec 8 was cancelled. My poor hubby was already there at Manila US embassy at 6am all nervous and all, only to find the news. I was disappointed at the embassy because they said they posted it on their website, I mean, they could have emailed or phoned people who has set appointments that day that it's going to be cancelled.

Oh well, even respected US institution can crumble their ways, especially when they are situated in other countries. Bad move. But on the contrary, my hubby called up the embassy and they told him that interviews for today are all moved to Friday, Dec12 with the same time. Another 4 more days of torture.

That means, he might not be able to be here in time for Christmas. Bummer.

Speaking of LOVE

A month from now, I will be back to my homeland, and going to be married to my one great love. It may seem a little fast but our whirlwind romance doesn't need no further introduction. At the back of my head, even way before this second time around, I already knew I am going to end up marrying this  man. I just wasn't sure when and where til now. (lol)

We decided on a small civil wedding with family and close friends first, and later on maybe a year after, a big 'ol church/beach ceremony (as promised by him). 'Coz though money is tight, nothing can stop us from getting hitched.

I am just happy to have found our way back to LOVE. For good.

Philippines bound.

Hibernating again folks! Travelling with family to awesome places in the PI for a month. SUMMER TIME!

I hope it's better now.

Pete and I talked. And just kept talking and then one day, without us both knowing, feelings came up and we are back together, with fingers crossed that this time, it's for real and it's better, and it's stronger. Damn, I know it wasn't easy for me to accept the fact that there are excess baggages to be considered, but loving this man, is the only thing I know best, and with that love, acceptance just runs through. Maybe in time, I will manage to keep up with these baggages but for now, I just want to be happy again. And I am.

You bet I have heard so much "negative" stuff about him before this, but I guess I have learned, that the only person I will trust, and listen to, is him. We have put our past buried, and all our other pasts too. And promised to do our best not to include those pasts, in our conversations, no matter how bad, no matter how heated our arguments will to be in the future.

I am so inlove, it never really went away. Coz when I saw his name, my mind just completely froze, froze with glee. The only thing now, that I am not very happy about is that, he wanted our relationship private, no facebook postings, no one will ever know except our closest friends. I find hard for me to do that because I love love. And to announce it to the world for me makes it more complete, makes a statement that he is mine, and I am his.

But we will see. Madali lang naman ako kausap eh.

Dear Time Difference,

YOU FUCKIN' SUCK!