U TURN

This strange attraction we have
Can you even call it love?
Undeniably it's true,
I think I'm fallin for you.

My weakness called "YOU"
Cheers me up when I'm blue.
Is this for real?
An understanding we have to deal.

I miss you when you're away,
You miss me when I'm busy.
We miss each other everyday.
A friend of mine asked me, are you crazy?

This is yet another U-turn,
In twenty-four years I've learned,
Running is never always the answer.
But this fairytale calls for a major disaster.

BEAUTIFUL DISASTER

You are in my dreams
I fear the horizon it brings.
Back in reality we live different lives
Our song doesn't even jive.

How can this work
When all i can see is hurt.
We are so meant to be together
But why can't I see forever.

Hopeful must I always be
Cherish the moments with thee.
The love we can't always master
Wow! Such a beautiful disaster.

Fading in the distance
The fog of night as I glanced.
Stars never always tell the truth
Keep wishing, there's still so much to prove.

I now rest and look away
For tomorrow is a brand new day.
The share of sunshine I look forward to
Will always be there your whole life through

AIN'T I SUCH A SCREW UP

Finally it's SPRING BREAK!!!!! Ahhhh you never know how much I've waited for this one, but not for the reasons you probably have in mind. Party you think? NAH! My social life is never always my reason, for I'm a social BUM and not only do I not have the money to party, but I'm also currently jobless at 24. OMG! Thank God for Mum and Dad huh they do all the work for me. And I freakin HATE it! I ain't that selfish too you know.

But anyway, aside from "not looking forward but I have to" dilemma because I have tons of take home exams to finish up over the break, I also have to review for my NCLEX! damn this exams, who even made these? hahaha. I know it's for the better good of mankind and saving lives typa thing but it's just frustrating to juggle between school and this. I wasn't born a multi-tasker and if I ever do it, I hyperventilate and drop by the nearest sink to puke(if I even find a nearest sink)hahaha. I'm just being silly because truth scares me. hahaha.

So I have at least a week to do EVERTHING...take home exams, NCLEX, cleaning my car and our house(family friends are supposed to be coming over from the Philippines and our house is always the "get together" house so aarrrggghh guess who gets to clean it spotless tada ME! Gosh I miss having helpers and maids! hahaha) and also not to mention I have myself to think about, my spring reading(I always get into the habit of finishing a book of my choice every holidays and breaks), and I hope to at least compose one song. I even turned down meeting up with my friends coz it's sucks to have friends who pay for everything and never lets you pay for anything if your a BUM.. hahaha I know ain't I lucky shet! I'm soooo poor God knows! I don't even have a freakin dollar in my wallet! And my credits all maxed out! So screwed!

So I'm not...again....in touch with the world! Hello looser Moi! Hayyyy...anyway, I'd better get my butt up now! Not a minute to loose baby! TIME IS PRECIOUS! Just dropped by to make noise! Writing keeps me sane so forgive me! hahaha.

CAN LIFE SUCK EVEN MORE?

I just bummed my test... ang walang hiya ko kasing utak ayaw papasukin ang mga pinagaralan ko. 2 of my exams this week were like freakin brain draining marathons, ang bilis ng pangyayari. I felt like quiting and running away again coz I'm sick and tired of this madness, my madness. Can I just have a halt for one sec and sip a latte or something? Gosh I've been like a horrible nerdo ever since this semester dove into action. It's been library---house---lack of sleep---procrastination for me again!

Hayayay to think other people are all whining about their work...excuse me uuhhh im not working right now and frankly speaking.. I am willing to trade places with you! I'd rather work than procrastinate bout school. I want success but I'm just hating the concept of rough sailing process towards it. Grrr...

Today the AP class was boring! Not only did the professor, who came to class first day, quit... he left us with this new professor who's barely in the teaching system of the school. OMG though he's cool and everything coz he speaks like George Lopez(know him? that funny celebrity Latino guy) but other than that professor's boring dude! I'm telling you..I was gonna drop this class right there and then awhile ago but hey, I'm not such a bad-ass to do that.. not right now for I dont want to put hold another semester kasi kukunin ko parin yan so whatta heck db, might as well finish it(hang in there baby!).

Sabi ng mga kaibigan ko, Im so insane to be taking two major biology courses all in one semester, in which both of those courses are prerquisites for the RN program and you can't just be satisfied with a C in any of it coz it's not so easy getting into the program. AAHHHHH why am I even taking Nursing??!?! It's all a LIE. I'm a BIG LIAR...I'm lying to my parents and most especially I'm lying to myself! I did tell them I dont want Nursing, but they wouldnt listen, and whenever I bring up this topic I still kept on listening to the same reasonable and rational speech over and over again..thats why I hate to argue coz its no use ... I still think they are being inconsiderate but I also know that they do have a point ... SO UHHH IM AGAIN LOST!

So ano na gagawin ko? Edi wala. Sometimes its hard to change the course of the future even though we are very much capable of doing the change. Major factors matter. Major fears set in. Major consequences are bound to happen.

Am I the only one stuck in this kind of situation? If so...now this my friend, is very sad. ARRGGGGHHHH!