LIL BIT OF BOTH

I am excited. I can't believe that I'm finally going back to my hometown after almost 5years.

* Yes it's my first time back and this time it's for real. We've planned and cancelled, planned and cancelled but this one, ain't going to be cancelled anymore. In a matter of 20days, I'll be off to the place I've always known to be "my home", P.I. My bessie, Tinay said it's still the same over there, nothing much have changed really except the fact that my former classmates are already working their way to success. Gosh, we are indeed old. No more of those "Let's hang on the weekends kay may class ako,"---sentences anymore. It's now replaced by "Sure plan lang ahead para ka off ko." Wow, time do fly by fast.

I am nervous as heck. I can't believe I'm finally going back to my hometown after almost 5years.

* Yes, it's my first time back and this time it's for real. Aside from the fact that this ain't never going to be cancelled, there's so much unfinished business I have to deal with once I get back. Memories of bittersweet past will come around again, not that I've anticipated it already, but things happen, and if things do happen sometimes we have no control over them, I have no control over them. But I have a way of getting around them most of the time, hope I can still have the charm to do that. What can I say, I'm a runner, "running away" is my middle name.

As much as I had been wanting to pack my things eversince this year rolled, and as much as I had fun packing my things today, I can't seem to get rid of this funny feeling in my stomach, the feeling of "not knowing what to expect but you know in your head that everything's going to be fine anyway, and yet you still worry." It's probably due to my cuckoo paranoid state of mind but you know what I mean right? (pls say yes) hehe. My dad, mum and I have sat down awhile ago to discuss our itinerary, things to do, places to go, people to meet. As I offered to be the secretary to write these stuffs down, I then wished I didn't offer at all. Gosh, just writing the IT down seems like I won't even have time to sleep!!! And to think we already have the luxury of having a month and a few days vacation, how much more those people I know who would normally take a leave for only 2weeks max. Damn hehe!

Oh well, this is my ranting for the day. Excited and Nervous, I think it's a pretty good combination right? Jeez... I think I just have to sleep this one off! hehehe.

MY FAVE QUOTE FOR THIS WEEK (MAY 21-27)

"Being alone, doesn't mean that you are lonely"

Yeah, literally it doesn't make any sense...but I'm a senseless person so whatever! hehehe. I'm just feelin' this quote this week. Sometimes, the "being single" happy thoughts I have, overpowers and wears me out and I get to this zone wherein I then re-think of things in the so-called "love department," which reminds me, I don't have any! I guess this quote can relate to some people out there and can better explain why it touched them in some point in their lives.

REALLY?! I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU!

"Moi, I'm engaged."

I swear, if I hear another friend of mine say this to me, I'd probably go crazy! (the good crazy kind) I don't know where I've been to this year, but I somehow find it very revealing how some of my friends got themselves engaged already. Is this really happening? Am I really on that certain age where these kinds of news would just supposedly come on to me smoothly? DAMN! I am old.

Engagement is a mutual promise to marry. (hyperdictionary.com)

To think here I am still dreaming about fairytale endings and my prince charming...who by the way hasn't swept off my feet yet! What a bummer huh, I'm just laughing at myself right now because I'm such an oddball. I mean no offense or anything, being engaged is a wonderful thing and yes, when I say "I'm so happy for you" I am really happy for you no doubt!

"Enjoy this year because the next year, it's downfall from there"

I remembered my cousin told me this when she greeted me on my 24th birthday this year. I just laughed and hugged her for the advice! I wasn't really understanding the "downfall" part of it but I guess I'm kinda getting the idea that being in the mid-20's, the young adult will eventually loose the young, and assume adult responsibilities. I wouldn't even go on rambling about this because I still have a year more to go hahaha. Silly me!

So yeah that's it, I just wanted to air out my goosebumps about engagements and future marriages because I feel that I haven't accomplished anything worthwhile yet and here they are, being engaged and all...it just makes me think that I'm way behind? I don't know how they do it. I guess I still have a long way to go!

Probably I'd go find myself a boyfriend first. hahaha, oh please!

ANNOUNCEMENT: TO MY FELLOW CHJ ELEM BATCH ALUMNI 1995

We are having our second for this year reunion gathering. I'm so excited coz I can finally attend this one!!! hahaha... actually we kinda planned it that way, so hopefully you'll have the chance to drop by here at my site and read this coz I don't think anyone is reading my weblog anyway! hahaha...

"IT'S A WHITE NIGHT"

What: CHJ ELEMENTARY BATCH 1995 REUNION (part2)

Where: THE BUFFET PLAZA, CENTENNIAL HOTEL

When: JULY 8, 2006 (SATURDAY)

Time: 6PM

Theme: rsvp to wear white top, dress ... basta white and comfortable!

And when you do come, I'm sure you're not going to regret coming coz we'll have fun all the way and I heard there will be surprises in store too! So please do come. And spread this great news!!! Once in a lifetime lang ni bla, so attend kamo pls! Salamat gid! SEE YOU THERE!!!!

FROM THE ELEM REUNION ORGANIZERS

SHINING THRU, WILL I EVER SEE U?

when the light of day
knows you are leaving
will it shine anyway?

when the light of day
knows you are grieving
will it turn the skies grey?

when the light of day
knows you are yearning
will it call me to stay?

when the light of day
knows you are missing
will it ask me to find your way?

when the light of day
knows no other day
will i ever see you someday?

FINALS

Hayy.. it's down to the finals week. I'm so excited and nervous at the same time. Excited, because it's going to be summer soon and nervous, because it's finals duh hehe. I haven't even browsed on my finals' notes yet coz there had been quizzes this week so I can't study both finals and quizzes all at the same time due to my limited memory span (a crammer), so clearly multi-tasking isn't one of my many best skills hehe. The only multi-tasking I can do is drive, eat, talk on the phone and listen to music all at the same time..so yeah I guess anyone can do those too, just count me lame that's fine with me hehe.

Another thing I'm excited about is visiting Philippines again. Yep my first time back in 5 years which felt like triple-doubled I should say. And alot has happened and has been happening and changing too so I bet this first trip back to my hometown will definitely be a blast, a good one I hope! Well, for starters I have an elementary batch reunion to attend to (talk about fun!), lots of lined up unfinished businesses to take care of, and lots of places to visit in 2months time woohh!!! Just thinking of these makes me tired already, how much more really doing them hehe! At least this is going to be one heck of a crazy, worth the wait summer ever!

Gosh can't you tell, I'm freakin out already...not about my finals though hehehe. But oh well, I can't get away with it easily so boohoo for me! Hmm.. wish me good luck!