I know..

I know I haven't been blogging for a while..been a lil bit crazy around here, with preparing my stuffs and all for the BIG travel. Anyway, it's not yet sure, so I ain't telling you a thing about it just yet.

Anyway, I changed my header again (OBVIOUSLY) hehe, it's pretty cute don't ya think? I took that picture when we went to Catalina Island. And so that means, it's not my back OK? hehe, so were clear on this. People have been asking if that's me so I just wanna make that straight and besides, I don't have a SEXYBACK hehe and I'm not about to wear a two piece EVER..stress on the "ver" hehe.

Hmm so what else is going on with me? Well, I'm about to release another site, for my PHOTOGRAPHY! I just have to put my pictures out there because they're all pretty nice to me and I just wanna share them, share my insanity for photography..even though I'm no expert nor professional. Ah basta! hehe. I'll be putting up my PHOTO SITE in a lil while.

BTW it's my mom's birthday today so "HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM! Love Yah So Much!" We are actually going to dinner soon, so I'll post again later. Hope you're having a great job today!

Wuzzup Homies?

I've been preoccupied by these two stuffs in the picture right now. I got a new phone, equipped with almost evrything for my long journey ahead(hope it lasts) and a book by my fave 24yr old daughter of Ireland's prime minister and an international bestsellers' author, Cecelia Ahern, "Love, Rosie" which I'm trying so hard to finish reading...I'm really trying hehe (eventhough I can account for more snack breaks than reading)..still, I'm trying hehe! What's it about you ask? It's about DESTINY (I think I'll name my daughter someday if i do bear a daughter..the name, Destiny..) and that there's always someone destined for you, no matter how many MISSED OPPORTUNITIES there will be, at the end there will still be ENDLESS POSSIBILITIES waiting, just waiting for you to learn that FATE isn't done with you just quite yet.

I'm also waiting for the 79th Annual Academy Awards, 7pm Pacific Time tonight on ABC. Actually I'm not into watching the whole awards thingy who's got awards or who didn't, I'm more on the fashion do's and dont's. I love looking at the celebrities' gowns on the red carpet. But I am rooting for Jennifer Hudson, the former American Idol finalist, who's nominated for Best Supporting Actress from the movie, "Dreamgirls." I think it's her time to shine.But oh well, Ellen Degeneres (tv icon and comedian) is hosting..this oughtta be good (I like her, she's loads of fun)!

My Fave Hideout

My own "Dawson's Creek", I call it "mOieee's Lake" but it's actually Lake Arrowhead. I come here whenever I feel lonely, I feel angry, when something's bugging me, when I like to think, when I want to be alone and just want to escape from the hustle & bustle of a noisy city. I don't even know why I'm stressful these past few days. Thinking is stressful. Here I go again, don't know what I'm ranting about. Forgive me, this will be over soon. Soon.

I also changed my mood strain.. it kinda describe what I'm feeling right now, (singing from the top of my lungs) "Suddenly I see this is what I wanna be. Suddenly I see why the hell it means so much to me!"

(shots by mOieee)

Stuck With You

A million broken hearts everyday
But mine isn't one
Well atleast not today
This love has just begun
Continuing the chapters left undone
Life couldnt be any more brighter
Knowing that you love me
I can now again see, 'forever'

Nagmumuni-muni

I don't like feeling this way, yung may pinapaabot akong parang wala naman. If only I can receive answers from the one person na makakapagbigay liwanag sa magulo kong isipan. Nakasalalay ngayon ang aking mga pangarap sa isang paborito kong tao. At sya lamang ang makakasabi na maghanda na ako at OK na ang lahat. I'll be moving on.

Pero a part of me ay ayaw ding marinig ang salitang "OK NA" kasi marami din akong maiiwan na pinakamamahal ko sa mundo. Ganito pala ang feeling ng malayo sa mga bagay-bagay na mahalaga sayo, na pinakamamahal mo, o natutunan mo ng mahalin. Malungkot pero dapat kong gawin to. Kailangan ko ng pahalagahan ang sarili ko, kailangan ko ng hanapin kong ano ba talaga ang papel ko sa mundong ito.

Masyadong neutral ang mga feelings ng mga tao dito ngayon na may alam na sa mga balak ko. May mga tao pa nga akong hindi nasasabihan dahil natatakot ako. Ayoko silang makitang malungkot at ayokong magiba ang trato nila sa akin dahil dito. Ang dami plang e-sasacrifice. Ang dami ring palaabuting responsibilities. Pero diba may kasabihan ang mga Filipino na, "Kapag may tiyaga, may nilaga." I just hope may mga katuturan din ang mga kasabihan maski pang-boost up ng self-esteem na lang.

There's a reason for everything. I have a reason. I have a reason kung bakit I will grab this opportunity now. I am not getting any younger, and my siblings aren't either. Gusto ko man lang na makatulong sa pamilya ko later on. Promise ko sa parents ko na hindi ko pababayaan ang mga kapatid ko. Kaya ko to gagawin... para mabigyan ko ng future ang sarili ko at ang mga kapatid ko later on but there are also big reasons behind this, sa akin na lang muna yun.

I believe this is a 2nd chance from Him. A 2nd chance to do things differently this time. I screwed it up the last time kaya He changed the course of my future to help me out, pero siguro narealize Nya na worthy na ako ulit na balikan ang nakaraan with a new head, new soul and new mOieee. That's why I am taking this and I will show myself and everybody who's counting on me na kaya ko ang decision na 'to.

"It's about time" sabi ng mga kaibigan ko at nakakakilala ng lubusan sa akin. I hope they are right. I hope I'm right.

Let's start over again.

Ang sarap pakinggan.

Hindi lang "take care" ang natanggap ko galing sa kanya.

"My Dork" is back.

A Sweet Escape (my longest blog)

Catalina Island.

A sweet escape.

Awesome birthday.
I was awaken by the sound of my phone ringing. I thought at first it was just an alarm so I didn't mind it and buried my head under my pillow. It freakin rang again. So with my eyes still shut, I pressed the side of my phone to put the alarm off or so I thought... It rang again, and again and again. I sat up, looked out of my window, sighed at the sight of darkness and reached for my phone. Damn, 12 missed calls and 3 voice msgs. Missed calls were from my best girls, Uding and Bading. Still clueless on what's up, I listened to the voice msgs. When I heard Uding's voice on the first msg, my eyes widen and looked at my clock, 6:15 am was blaring right back at me. I came to my senses that we are going to Catalina Island today. And in order to get to the island, we have to ride an express boat for about an hour. The ticket reservation we have is at 8:30am. It's an approximate 1 hr and 30 minutes (with traffic flowing) drive to get to the boat terminal. I'm still in bed. I'm screwed.

It was traffic bumper to bumper. My bad! So we decided to take the 10am boat trip instead. My friends are already used to my being late all the time. Actually it's an improvement today because I was only 45minutes late from our actually meeting time which was supposed to be at 6:30am to the usual arrival I've been doing for the past 4yrs of our friendship, 2hrs max. Due to my severe insomnia, I can't get up earlier than 10am. I have a very abnormal sleeping pattern it sucks.

So anyway, at the ticketing area, Uding muttered, "Tinatamad ako magduty bukas" and Bading quickly said as well, "Me too." We all looked at each other and the two of them said, "Overnight tayo dali!" It was sooooo random, just like that, we got our tickets for the 10am trip and the first trip back tomorrow at 11am. I can't believe we just decided right on the spot to stay in the island for a night. We were all excited! We thought it would be best to formulate just one reason to tell our parents and workplace why we are staying overnight just in case. OMG my dad will be so pissed!

Catalina Island is one of the places I've been wherein you can mutter a big "Wow" (esp. when you're a first timer like me). The island is not overcrowded and you can really feel that you're in some island getaway or something. The houses were colorful and the main city, Avalon, was like a little old town with little shops and stores on the side of a narrow street. But we are not going to stay in the main city, Uding suggested that it's best to stay somewhere where there's less people and more scenic views. So we decided to go to another city called Two Harbors. It's called Two Harbors because this city is in between two harbors, it's like surrounded by two main bodies of water (according to the information packet I was holding). And in order to get there we are taking the Safari Bus. I joked at first at the sound of Safari, I pictured there will be lions, snakes and some wild animals on the way, you know how a real safari would look like in movies... Well guess what, I wasn't half wrong. We passed by unpaved bumpy roads that go around and in the mountains. It was more like a desert out there man! We passed by hilly parts, narrow dangerous turns overlooking the sea below and when you happen to have some engine trouble there's a tendency to get stuck on the road and starve to death because there are alot of celfone signal dead spots.

I knew from that point on, when we were literally bumping our heads on the bus ceiling because of the bumpy ride we're having, that all of us are rethinking if we made a good decision of choosing to stay at another city other than the main city where we can still see some civilization around. But still we stuck it out. We just amused ourselves on how we just randomly decided to stay. Uding called the lodge in Two Harbors if there's still room available, they said no but they have an available cabin. So we reserved for that cabin, anyway it's only for a night. We had to stop at Catalina Airport Bus Terminal to get some more passengers and there's a switch of bus drivers. I thought it was going to be a nice little airport since it was an island and all but I was stunned to see that it was like an old airport in somewhere Mexico, so major creepy!!! To make it more interesting than it already was, there was no other passengers other than the 3 of us and the next driver was also creepy, he's a guy in his mid-40's, caucasian male, dressed poorly, has untidy long dirty blond hair pulled back in an untidy manner, untrimmed mustache and brittled teeth and fingernails -- those type of guys you see on scary horror films where he pose as a miner or a hiker and then in the middle of the night he attacks and eats you if you make a wrong move. Hahaha...me and my imagination, fabulous!

At last, we saw the bodies of water again, the only matchpoint where we can tell that we are nearing a city already. We passed by some old bungalow houses and mini cabins, and then the driver pulled over in an old village. He said we've arrived at Two Harbors. Uding, Bading and I looked at each other and in unison said, "Nandito na tayo?" We went down the bus, took our stuff and walked at the first cemented pavement we saw. There was no one around at all as we were walking down this little path to those bungalow houses which were actually offices. A sudden rush of creepiness surged inside of me, goosebumps, it's like walking on a completely abandoned city and then suddenly zombies will jump at us and eat us whole. "Wala bang tao dito? Asan na ba tayo? Kakatakot naman dito." Bading said. Then I saw an open office and we rushed to check if someone was there so we can ask questions. There was this old plump guy who greeted us, "Yes ladies how may I help you?" And so we asked were the lodge was. He pointed to another same looking office at the far end.

There was really no one around even at the beachside, we felt like we were the only tourists around there.. but do you know how I really feel? I feel that zombies are lurking around and watching our every move. hehe! After getting our cabin key, the guy said to follow a little trail at the back of a general store and the cabins are there. So we did. As we were walking, there was a kayak rental store and a vacant little park. I was famished so I glanced around if there are any restaurant in this quiet creepy place. I saw a general store, peeped inside but there was no one there, but it was open, and I saw a restaurant beside it but it's closed. It's like this movie, "Blairwitch Project" where the teenagers carry a videocam and recorded a series of scary random deaths (but we don't have a videocam sucks hehe) We followed the trail and came out to an open road and saw little resident houses. As we were going to the direction of the cabins, we passed by several black cats. OMG this is not very good. I have this ability to sense the other world unseen by our naked eye and seeing black cats is a major superstitious no-no to me. My friends know I can sense and they both looked at me, "Moi, pag may nakikita ka wag mo na lang sabihin ha." I laughed at the remark (more like a nervous chuckle).

We arrived at our cabin number 6 and opened the lock. Damn, the room was like a box no bigger than our bathroom at home with bunk beds and no pillows. Great! All of us were already wishing we didn't come here in this city.. in this island. This is too weird for our comfort. We are cowgirls but this is too uninviting. But since we were there already, we didn't have a lot of choice but to enjoy what's there and all. We went out and looked for food. It was already 2pm and all of us were about to eat each other if we can't find food to eat hehe. Thank heavens we saw this diner that sells burgers and fries. They were about to close but the lady still gladly accommodated us. She said the diner serves from 5am-2pm and the restaurant beside it opens at 5pm and there's a pool table and darts and they serve beers too if we want to chill later. Our ears widen at the sound of it. Maybe it wasn't that bad as we thought it would be.

After eating we headed to the beach. It was completely deserted, it's like a private beach and we were like the owners or something. That's why we call it a bittersweet escape because if you were in a honeymoon then that atmosphere right there would be so perfect; quiet and peaceful away from everything else. I loved it, I needed it. The water was icy cold so we just ran around, played a bit and just sat by the beachside talking about mostly LOVE of course, they both have special someones na and just listening to them blurt out experiences made me think about what's missing in my life.

As I was listening to them rant about life and love and how they constantly tell me, "Kaw mOieee, ang daming gustong pumasok sa buhay mo pero hanggang ngayon ala parin, kaw talaga pinakakawalan mo kasi ang mga prospective special people kapag it's getting serious na pano ba yan.." I was going to answer back but then I saw a familiar looking boat docked at the port. Bading and Uding saw it too and we were all silent for a couple of minutes.

"Catalina Express Boat!"

"Kala ko ba wala ng trip pabalik til tomorrow morning?" ang tanong ni Bading.

We hurriedly went to the ticketing office but it was closed. So we asked those people hanging around the dock. A guy told us that there's a last trip back to the city of San Pedro at 7:15pm. The three of us were relieved at the news! We asked if we could change our trip schedule instead of going back tomorrow we're going back that night. He said it won't be a problem but we have to talk to the office when it opens again later at 6:30pm. The three of us looked like we won the lottery or something. We hurriedly went back to our cabin, showered and packed up. We waited at the front of the office till it opened eventhough our butts freezing cold because we were so anxious to go home already. We did enjoy our creepy trip but we can't last for a night here, "baka ano pa ang mangyari mahirap na hehe."

We boarded on the last trip around 7:30pm. Yes we got it changed. Inside the boat. We were all exhausted, the three of us slept the whole entire trip back to civilization. When we stepped out of the terminal of San Pedro an hour after, I never realized how much I loved and missed the city. hehe! But it was helluv a trip indeed. A very different kind of birthday celebration. An adventure for a change! I love it! Even the creepiness. Actually I was quite sad I didn't get to see any zombies. haha.

Thanks to my two best ghals....Uding and Bading! You know who you are.. I love you. And no matter where I'll be, near or far, I'll always be here for you two. We are the only ones left standing and even though things are rough, I will always be thankful that you two have been so patient and understanding to me and my insanity. Many more to come my homies! Mwaahhh.

In Time You'll Know.

Tags: Subtle. Refined. Simple. Light. Grayscale. Quiet. A little cynical. Insomnia.

It's not out of boredom this time. Something is occupying my thoughts right now and so my mood is somehow the same as the descriptions I've given above. I am too restless to sleep and so therefore this is the finished product. A new design and a whole different font.

Yes. Keloyd needs to update his layout. And No. I'm not doing it for you. hehehe.

Lapdance muna! jowk. (lambing ko rin..)

Nwei...lights out for mOieee!

A Single's realization

More than 2 weeks ago, my mom and I were talking and I believed I mentioned that in one of my posts that she surprised me and made me think about what she said. Well, I've thought about it. And I think I'm sure of my decision this time. I'm scared but I have to do it because it's what's best for me. Or so I think it is. My parents and I have finally agreed to a unanimous decision. Thank goodness. A second chance to prove myself that I can do things differently this time. I hope I won't let everybody down.

Confused yet? hehehe. I won't reveal anything for now, because I know me...ever changing. It is still subject to change and so I don't want to cause any hope and disappointment to everybody. I will only reveal it if it's totally final, like I'm packed and ready to go and off to a more greener ground. Yes, that's a clue, something about traveling (AGAIN!?!) but probably this time, a more LONGER travel.

Hayyy this is what happens when you reach an "on the verge" age and you begin to ask yourself, "I've reached this age and yet, what have I done that's worthwhile?" and mutter a shivering.."I don't know." Then you panic. You begin to think about what you really want to do with your pathetic life. You begin to formulate goals and plans and come up with suggestive decisions.

Aaahhh here I go again. Lord help me!

Talk about History (Of CUPID dummy!)

I received this message from a friend of mine awhile ago, just as the clock struck 12am signalling the beginning of Valentine's fever,

"It's Valentine's Day! We both think it's Stupid so I brought a Gun. Let's go look for Cupid"

We know he's the Love's Archer but who really is CUPID?

In Greek mythology, Eros, god of love, was the son of Aphrodite, goddess of love, and Ares, god of war. In some myths, Eros had a brother, Anteros, who was the avenger of unrequited love. In Roman mythology on the otherhand, he was called Cupid (from the Latin word for desire) He is generally represented as a mischievous boy who carries a bow and a quiver of arrows. Whoever he strikes with one of his arrows will fall in love with the next person they see. Cupid became such a popular figure in European painting after the Renaissance that the Victorians appropriated the image to use in the ornate valentines that came into fashion during the 19th century.

Wow, that was informative of me. haha, I was just always fascinated with mythology since I was introduced to the gods and goddesses back in high school.

Anyway, my plans for today? Just stay home and sleep this day off I guess. I remembered back in my "rebel" days *lol*, my barkada(click), who's mostly single before, and I would hang out and do our criticzing moments-making fun sessions to those couples we see around. It was fun to the point wherein were puking because of laughing so hard! And of course we were half-drunk, duh! Our pathetic lives before my bad! :D I'm glad I have memories like those, good ol times. Gawd I miss those gays. Now, most of them are professionals already damn. 3 are nurses, 1 works in Panay News(Iloilo's local newspaper), 2 works in call centers, 1 med student, 1 works in Unilever and 1 works in a Funding Office. But we all still manage to keep in touch and we met all up when I went home last July (complete attendance!).

Well.. gotta park my laptop, Have a wonderful Valentine's everybody!

Blowing Candles

I know with the date & time difference and everything I'm already receiving birthday greetings from my friends and family all across the globe! Thanks a bunch you guys for remembering me on my special day. I know having a birthday that's before a Valentine's Day sometimes mask it and people forget about it because of the V-hype, "everyone's just busy concerning themselves of the V-occasion" which I don't mind at all considering the fact that my relatives (when I happen to bump into some of them) always ask me after greeting me a happy birthday, a very common question in the 20 sumtin years I've lived here on planet earth, "So who's your lucky date tomorrow?" Wtf give me a break here, I'm too old for this question already. hehe *me and my in denial* sense of nonsense.

Hmm.. I haven't thought of any plans to do on my birthday. Probably a road trip to Catalina Islands sounds good, we'll see. Thanks again. And to those who haven't greeted yet, you still have time, it's still the 12th here in Cali anyway *lol* (but I'm putting this on date 13th post -- to avoid confusion)

Tickle

In accordance to this V-week, here's a LOVE QUIZ for your bored mind. Whether or not you have a cuddle bunny or not, it doesn't matter, just answer and have a little fun to pass your time.

So ok, answer these questions true or false. If you answer ten out of ten true, you are definitely in love; if six out of ten, there may be other fish in the sea for you; if three or fewer... what on earth are you sticking around for?

Easy? Yeah, let's begin then.

(T/F)

1. I think he/she is always (okay, almost always) the most attractive person in the room.
2. If the person who broke my heart when I was twenty wanted me back now, I wouldn't even consider it.
3. No one has ever cared about me as much as he/she does.
4. I look forward to finding out what he/she looks like at age seventy.
5. I love being referred to as his/her boyfriend/girlfriend/spouse.
6. If he/she were injured in an accident, I would want to be the first one at the hospital.
7. Sometimes I feel guilty for getting so lucky.
8. If I were in a crisis, he/she is the first person I'd call.
9. I think he/she would make a great parent.
10. I can't imagine my life without him/her.

Done already? That's fast hehe. Now don't forget to tell me how you did. C'mon just for fun! I even told you mine. hehe.

Any plans for the 14th?

Woohoo it's now Monday.. It's practically the start of the V-week! Or if you're single, edi S-ingles A-wareness D-ays a.k.a. how SAD! hehe. Naku, maniwala kayo dun, hindi sad ang mga singles noh, well for some, I guess. But me, I'm not really affected with this Valentine infection going around. I got total immunity already complete vaccination ako noh! *lol* At least wala akong poproblemahing dinner reservations, what clothes and shoes to wear, at kung ano ano pa. Some of my friends are asking, so what are your plans on the 14th? Usual na sagot ko, "Ano bang meron?" haha. Napaka-cynical ko na grabe! Dapat dali-dali-an na ng prince charming ko ang paghahanap sa akin before ako matuluyang maging pusong bato waaaahhh. Tinatamad na kasi ako maghanap, kaya cya na naman maghanap sa akin for a change o dba!

Hay naku, la na namang saysay ang mga pinagsasabi ni mOieee ngayong araw na to. Gusto ko lang sana magkwento ng mga sweet stuff tungkol sa Valentines.. pero ala talaga eh, ganun talaga basta hindi pa naiinlove muli, probably let's leave the teleserye scripts kina Keloyd at Lib, at least ang mga mokong na yan eh inlove, at siguradong merong handang espesyal pra sa kanilang mga lucky women. Sha..sha kwentuhan nyo na lang ako ha? hehe.

So to all singles out there, I dedicate my song pick of the week, "I Will Learn To Love Again" by Kaci (OST of The Perfect Man) to all of us. And don't forget it's not too late to look for a date!(in US, its 2days til the 14th and in Pinas, its a day til the 14th) because it's always nice to hang out with someone..even with a friend..or with a fellow single..

But if you're stuck with no one, it's not that bad. Just don't think about how dreadful it is so that it will fly by quickly hehe!

It's About Time mOieee

So I thought I was gonna sit still and not do any changes or anything today but sadly that sitting down lasted for only 3minutes. I was already having allergic reactions, my fingers were itching all over so to speak hehehe. I did some changes AGAIN?!?! Hehe, but I'm sooo happy of the outcome, finally I already incorporated my own design!(It's about time, thanks for boredom woooh! hehe) I've also put up some new additions that I know ya'll my fellow bloggers and friends might like.

First -- I stuck out with Flickr to host my travel shots, ARTSY FARTSY, because I'm still not able to find a good site to host my pictures. (I give up, for now..)

Second -- I've always wanted to put up a free MP3 downloading section, mp3 INVASION, for selected songs I like and for some requests that I've been receiving from people (friends, fellow bloggers and acquaintances) which I've been putting off for quite some time because I was busy and really haven't had the time to compile. So here it is, magsawa kayo hehe.

Third -- I have a lot of accounts, OMG a lot, I can't even keep up with each and everyone of them. I'm a cyber-geek what am I suppose to do right? hehe. So having accounts like friendster, myspace, multiply, blogspot, xanga, tabulas, etc.. you need to have some kind of music background to make your profile much more pleasing to both eyes and ears, a lil spice right? So I manage to turn some of my MP3's into easy music links, muSICK-box, so that you won't have to go thru all the trouble of downloading it on your own, you just have to copy & paste the song links you like. Yes I do it for you, isn't that sweet of me???? hahaha. No, that's just called boredom people *evil grin*

Happy yet? ME? Actually I'm tired na and famished. Ooops whatdya expect it's almost dinner! Well, have fun with my new linkies and enjoy yourselves. Any requests you like, please feel free to TAG the name of the song and artist and I'll see what I can do :-)

mOieee OUT!

Whatta Day.

Cheers to procrastination! Hayyyy, I've been procrastinating for 3 days already. You see I have a 2-3 page essay to do for my Nursing college application (finally I'm applying). My mom will kill me if she finds out I haven't send in my college application yet (due on the 1st of March). It's just that there are 4 questions to answer in essay form on the last page and I can't seem to answer them, I mean I've answered them roughly but you know me, always being too hard on myself. I'm not quite satisfied and definitely not convinced of my drafted answers. And I believe in the saying that if you want people to believe in you and what you do, you have to believe in yourself and believe that you can do what you say you can do first before you can convince others.

So here I am, downloading music in LimeWire and eating Doritos (gosh I'm fat na) hehe. Me and my sad sad life! I have to finish this before my transcripts arrive to that university first than my application. haha.

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BREAKING NEWS!!!!
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Vicky Lynn Hogan (1967-2007)

a.k.a. Anna Nicole Smith's sudden death shock not only the entertainment media but so as the whole world. Every channel stations across the United States tuned in to this very disturbingly sad breaking news. This 39-year old former Playboy playmate and bride of an 89-year old oil tycoon died today (Thursday) after collapsing at her Florida hotel room. They rushed her to the hospital but she was already DOA(Dead on Arrival). The cause of her death is still under investigation as of the moment, any related cause will be announced at the very latest, tomorrow (Friday). May she rest in peace.

Freak the hell outta me

"You're jealous??? How can you be jealous, we were just dancing..."

"He's all over you. That's not dancing anymore."

"Wait a minute... the last time I checked I'm single and you're not! So stop acting like you own me or something! If you loved me like you say you do, you'll risk everything even if we don't end up together!"

The crowd fell silent. Everybody's eyes were fixed on me. I muttered under my breath, "Damn It!" and left.

Then I heard someone called me at the background, "Ate!"

I woke up and saw my brother staring at me looking confused, "Are you okay?"

My gawd it was just a freakin' dream. Freaky enough that when I woke up the music that was playin' on my radio was the same music I was dancing to in my dream.

It was already three in the afternoon. I forgot I took a nap. I hurriedly got up and picked up my sister from her school.

"Whew!"

Mumbling

Just some quick shoutouts:

++Ms. Fye has gone missing again, the last time I've heard from her she said she's taking a lil vacation. Ey just be sure to come back ok! We're missing you already gurl ++Chun-chun honey, thanks for the testimonial on friendster and thanks for visiting my homepage, and btw my volks you were saying is color ORANGE, actually more like this ORANGE...hmm the color isn't in this basic color codes actually so I rest my case, basta it's not YELLOW po ++Uding, I love you dearie thanks for the support na binibigay nyo sa akin ni Jeng, all understanding the help I need. I'm forever debted of your love, support and trust, BFFL ever (bading friends for life!) hehe ++ My Sunshine, goodluck on your 8 essays to read, rough draft due, and 2 work labs on your pc class, uhmm...kaya ra uy bleeehh!++

Well, that's all for now, I have to figure out a way to lose weight, I feel like binging right now. hahaha. JUST KIDDING GUYS! I guess I'll just sleep this one off first (big disgusting yawn)

Nyt ya'll.

Movie Hoppin --- or should I say..

1:50-3:50pm --- I know I'm kinda late to watch it coz it's been out in the theaters for quite some time already but nevertheless I got to watch it still. Pursuit of Happyness is a good movie, a tear-jerker, a story of determination and never giving up against all odds. And by all odds, I mean ALL ODDS. Will Smith did a tremendous acting performance. I always see him as a comedic actor but when he does these drama movies, ahhh it melts my heart. This movie was inspired by a true story and who ever that real person was, my hat's off to him! Watching this movie made me thank God for giving me a good life and showering me bountiful blessings. I had my fair share of wanting to give up at some point in my life (which was stupid) and so this movie touched my inner core greatly.

4:20-6:15pm --- I managed to sneak in to another theater room to watch what I really came in to watch, which was the movie, Because I Said So. It's just that I was late so I went ahead and started off with Pursuit of Happyness first and if I had the time, will watch this. So I did have time and I wasn't really in the mood to go home yet so I watched another movie. Yes, SNEAKED IN because I didn't pay for it (my bad!) hehe. Anyway, this feel-good movie was actually good. I was expecting it to be a cheesy movie, because I didn't know Mandy Moore can pull it off (no offense to Mandy Moore fans, I don't hate her, I just don't like her, I find her arte hehe but don't listen to me) but I have to admit, I liked it. It was funny and it made sense. The movie is like a contrary to the saying, "Moms know best," ---- which was YES, BUT NOT ALL THE TIME. It's about a mom wanting the best for her daughter to the point that she screws things up for her even more. Bring your moms when you watch this, especially if at some point they wanted to manage your life... hehe. It's a romantic comedy, feel-good movie for all ages. And you know what else? The theater was actually packed with senior people, you know those middle aged people with greyish to white hairs. It got me thinking if it was Senior citizens' Day or something hehe (me and my crazy mind). It painted my face with a smile seeing these people and let that crazy thought go.

2 movies for the price of 1...how bout that! But kids don't try this at home hehehe. I know it's silly of me to sneak in, but hey I'm not the only one guilty here. People do it all the time. I was just one of the few. C'mon, if you were in my place, you'd do it to, admit it! hehe we'll even do it together. I mean, what's the fun if you're being a kill-joy huh? I guess I have my own fair share of naughtiness too. Ooops my bad! hehe.

I carry your Heart with me

I was feeling a little glum today, and so I was channel surfing or should I say tv guide surfing for anything that will let the time fly by faster and let this febuary fever end already. So ironic that my birthday falls on this very month and yet I am the most loveless person on earth right now, more cynical than I could ever imagine. It was a good thing my parents decided not to go ahead and name me "Valentina" -- that'll be creepy, imagine, I'll have nicknames like "Val, Tina, Valen, Baby V..." haha whatever, I mean no offense to those who has this name ok, I just can't imagine me with that name.

Anyway so I clicked on the movie, "In Her Shoes" starring Cameron Diaz and twas already near the end of the movie which was in my fave part where Cameron recites a poem to Toni Colette's (her sister in the movie) wedding. I love this poem by E.E. Cummings.

I carry your heart with me (I carry it in my heart)
I am never without it (anywhere I go you go, my dear;
and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling)

I fear no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet)
I want no world (for beautiful, you are my world, my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

Here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;
which grows higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)

And this is the wonder that's keeping the starts apart
I carry your heart ( I carry it in my heart)

I have a little sister too, and she is growing up pretty fast, and sometimes It's hard for me to catch up. I mean c'mon, 11 years of gap, hellooo.. though we almost always fight all the time emphasis on the ALMOST, ALWAYS and ALL... I can't abandon her nor ignore her even if I want to kill her already, I will still take a bullet for her. Oh well, there's always first times for everything.

I am beginning to be a first time "ATE (big sister)" to a growing fine young lady. It's hard. There isn't exactly a school for this you know. Give me a break! Wooh! :D

Wow I'm NOMINATED!

I just found out that I'm one of the nominees for the Filipino Blog of the Week (Week 42). Whoopie! I mean, from that countless lists of bloggers on that site, isa pa ako sa napili, I feel so honored hehe. Feeling ko tuloy ako si Golden Globe winner actress, Helen Mirren of the movie, "The Queen" ---well minus the age naman noh! hehe.

Anyway, thanks to the man behind this poll fest, napakagentleman mo talaga! hehe. So I encourage ya'll who visit my site to take some time and VOTE FOR ME at click here: The Composed Gentleman's Website. The poll host is at the left side corner of his site look for me, 11fingerz. Vote daily if you can and vote as many as you can. hehehe.

But being nominated is fun enough, I'm not really good with speeches anyway. haha! dork! :P

Thanks bloggers!

Life is a Highway.

Finally, I caught up with my favorite tv series' Grey's Anatomy and Brothers & Sisters on ABC online just awhile ago. I missed both of their last episodes so I watched the full episodes online. Thank goodness for high technology and thanks to ABC hehe.

Anyway enough plugging... now that my examinations are over, back to idling again. I don't know for sure if I'd pass or not, but whatever, I'm so over it already. Past is past. So moving on, I'd like to thank my bff, Uding!!! for picking up my siblings from their schools this afternoon. I owe you alot sistah! Cge lang, when this shitty things in my life starts finding light, makakabawi din ako sayo. I can't wait to share an apartment with you in downtown L.A. when we freakin move out and move on to greener pasteurs *LOL* I think we'd make a pretty good team. You can cook. I can clean. hahaha, very funny..

OK na sana ang araw ko, I was in a rather jolly mood, you know the feeling na wala ka na sanang aalalahanin pa dahil tapos na ang exam mo at parang magaan ang feeling. Pero you know, meron talagang one thing na makakabigay lungkot sa maganda na sanang araw.... but I'm not gonna say what it is. I don't have the right to be mad, nor accuse anyone because I wasn't there.

But two things are for sure: "I love the power of friendship as much as I hate the power of booze(slang for - hard liquor)."

Who's dancing now?