PATUTUNGUHAN

Alam mo ba ang saya ko pagkausap ka
Nawawala lahat ng pagod ko pagkakita ko pa lang ng caller id
Ayokong sagutin dahil nahihiya ako
Pero gusto ko namang marinig ang boses mo
Ang gulo ko noh?

Bakit hindi ko na lang kasi sabihin
Kung ano mang ibig kong ipahiwatig dito
Pero hindi ko rin alam kung ano ba to
Langya ang labo naman oh.

Mas maganda na sigurong ganito lang muna
La masyadong pressure, nakakakilig pa.
Pero kung may gusto kang sabihin
Sabihin mo na please, in a way excited na rin ako
Sana totoo ang mga pangyayaring ito
Hindi lang isang munting panaginip na maglalaho.

Wag na sana akong magising sa kung ano man to
Dahil naniniwala akong may patutunguhan ang lahat
Sana magkita na tayo para matapos na ang mga tanong
Sa isip mo't akin.
Sana magkatugma ang pananaw natin.

Pero kung sakaling hindi, malungkot man ako ayus lang
Basta't mahanap mo ang kasiyahan na hinahanap mo.
Madrama, lam ko. Hayyy buhay!
Totoo na ba to?

FIREWORKS

Fireworks here and there, stunning and beautiful across the darken sky of Los Angeles...It was 4th of July(U.S. Independence Day) and I was driving on the freeway that night. I'm on my way to the airport(LAX) to drop off a friend who's going home to the Philippines. Yes, Philippines. When we got off Sepulveda Blvd and went passed by the tunnel and reached the departure terminal, memories came flashing back. For three years of avoiding the airport, even the sight of it, afraid of these flashbacks to happen, I'm finally back here. I guess I just don't like airports that much. It lures me to be sad and sick to the stomach. I hate to see people leaving, not only my friends, but just those strangers lining up for baggage checks. I don't like to see family members cry in the distance because a part of their lives' leaving their side for reasons only them can understand. Although alongside, there are those who's excited enough to arrive at their destination, you can always notice them right away, 'coz they're the ones with a smile on their face, and chats with a group or with their family nonstop at the airport waiting lounge.

I can't wait to be one of those excited passengers again, but only time will tell. We can always plan things for ourselves but we cannot change the plan God has for us. There's always a reason for everything, either good or bad, happy or sad, excitment or frustration, only Him can tell. I'm always wishing and hoping that someday I can have my wish to go back to my favorite place in the world... Maybe that's why, I hated airports because it reminds me of my dream, a simple dream yet hard to reach...but still I'm hangin' in there. I know that someday, He'll grant my wish, my dream and that would be with a reason...a reason to be happy.

WHATTA...

I've had enough of this shit. Sometimes I wonder when I'm going to find him. Coz I hate this itsy bitsy infatuation blah blah already!!!! I'm sick and tired of guys telling me that they like me and yet, they are in far far away land and or, some of them are in a freakin' relationship, arrrggghhh!!! How am I suppose to react to this. If some gurls would actually go on with this, (I know people who do), well screw them coz I ain't like that. I don't tolerate this idea of flirting to someone who's far away, and especially to those who are in a relationship, whattaheck! I should better tell their gfs that their guys are not worth loving. Tsk.. tsk.. tsk..

It's kilig sana but then uh duh, we all know its crap! I know, you think I'm too mabait... well I am, and that's just how I see life. No wonder some marriages doesn't last for a lifetime anymore because of this horseshit. Play around if your single and frustrated. But play around when you're committed to someone? Grrr... shut up. Why be in a relationship in the first place if you know in the long run you'll get tired of it. If you're tired of it already, then end the relationship with that person first before you jump to the next one. At least that's more reasonable.

But be careful how you treat love. Coz it's not something to throw away just right there and then when something new comes a long. It grows old with experience not with monotomy. It's just normal to get tired of the person you're with at times but c'mon, get a grip, there are ways of treating it and certainly breaking up is the last amongst the options there is. You should feel lucky because someone cares for you, and will be there for you. So live it for those who don't and hold on to your raging hormones for goodness sake!