Wishes and Goals

Yesterday when I was driving home from a surprise birthday party for my cousin dearie (btw, it was fun guys! Thanks for inviting me), I realized that I attained another goal again. One of the 24 goals I wrote in the beginning of this year (inside one of my secret drawers). Coz you see instead of writing my yearly resolutions, I kinda revised it and made it as a yearly goal, which hopefully I can attain every year and it corresponds to the number of years I've been in this world.

That being said, the goal I attained last night was driving passed 5 or more freeways in one day. And that was even more interesting because it was just in one night! I know my goals are weird and don't make sense sometimes but hey who says everything has to make sense in this world right? I just want to live the moment. I'm the type of person who doesn't care how stupid or crazy a person acts sometimes, coz we all need to loosen up a bit from all the buzz kills of living in the fast lane. I also believe that things happen for a reason, that's why I made a wish as I ended passing the 5th freeway of the night.

I never thought that wishes and dreams and hopes make people smile and believe and trust. I learned it from those people who wished on my 11th lil finger last night. One person told me, that if you see someone with an extra finger.. you must wish on it by touching and holding it near your heart. And the person who has this should agree on whatever the wish was because it works. Your wish will come true in due time. My grandmothers told me having an extra finger is lucky. I know that part but the wishing part, I just knew last night.

Crazy right? But it wouldn't hurt to try.. So next time you guys see me hehe, or see someone with an extra finger, do what I said and make a wish. Of course you have to tell that person first of what you will be doing to his/her finger or you might get beaten up hehe.

Now you probably know why I named my site url 11fingerz.

Me, Myself and Emergency

I actually went to the mall today. Hmmm lemme see, it's been a month since I haven't been to the mall, wow broke my record of 1wk! I hibernate when I'm broke that's why hehe! But I had to go for some reasons:

First, my lil bro's birthday is on Thursday already. I had to buy him something.

Second, someone IMed me to come to a surprise party on________ for _________ (it's a surprise that's why I can't tell you of course) so I need to buy a gift too right?

Third, another surprise party on________ for________.. so of course another gift aaahhhh!

Fourth, my cousin's bday this Saturday... thank goodness it's a family effort to decide on what gift to give her hehehe! (btw...Ate anong gusto mo? haha)

Yup.... 3 Special Gifts for 3 Special People....

I now rummaged through my neat and organized drawers and vanities (yes, neat and organized becoz aside from being miss traveler, im also miss OCD (obsessive compulsive), for my "EMERGENCY" money(s) which if you're a good seeker you'll be rich with loose changes and dollar bills by the time you finish rummaging through my room. And to think, I still have some in my car! hehe.

I know it's kinda funny(yeah just laugh at me its alright hehe)but actually this kind of strategy I have with regards to having emergency money(s) scattered wherever is pretty helpful for my short-term memory, in layman's term, "forgetfulness" hehe. I suck at remembering things that sometimes lead me to driving without a driver's license because of the stupidity of leaving my wallet at home. sssshhh! hehe.

Anyway, I found $35 just through rummaging my secret hiding places hehe(SEE WHAT I MEAN) and actually exceeding the amount I have in my wallet which is only $20 bucks, hehe how sad!

I bought the gifts merely glancing over my favorite stores because it pains me to see those new items they have (ARRRGGGHHH). By the time I left the mall, I have 6 dollars left in my wallet. So you do the Math hehe coz it hurts to just look at those killer rocker sneakers I've been drooling over for the past month, which fortunately is still there but unfortunately I don't have enough emergency money left hehehe! grrr..

SO...I now hibernate again as my day has ended.

Bat Ganito Ma-Inlab?

Sarap talaga ng feeling pag-inlove ang isang tao, lahat may kulay...lahat maganda...wow!!!! It seems ur walking on cloud 9 everyday especially pa at nasa tabi mo sya palagi. May kilig every time na nagpapacute yong mahal mo. Sarap din ng feeling pag may nagke-care sayo...yon bang feeling na ikaw ay mahalaga, na ikaw lang talaga ang nasaisip nya. Ah sus hehe.

But of course, nobody can promise us a rose garden....kaya, di maiwasang may misunderstanding, may away, may tampuhan....may pa-cry-cry pa....hay naku!!! Ang daming kakornihan dba? Others will say, AYAW KO NA TALAGA but then nanghihinayang naman,ano kaya yon, pride fish nga naman o! Others naman BREAK EFFECT AGAD, but then later manghihinayang din at gustong bawiin ang nasabi na, hay naku, hindi ko na ma-take!

Bakit ang hirap ispelingin ng love? And hirap abutin kung ano nga ba ang tunay na meaning nito. Confusing noh? Well....no matter what love brings, we must enjoy it! Embrace it when it comes to us and then freely open our arms when we want to let go. No matter how it hurts, no matter how painful it may be, ang mahalaga, u enjoyed it at na-feel kung paano kasarap ang magmahal at mahalin!!! Be happy at least naranasan mo na and u learned from it.

Catch This!

It was my first time to see this event. i was amazed sorry (me soo naive!) this took place in the province of Belen, Iloilo. My cousins and I were on our way to the beach "bay-bay" and happened to pass by this crowd of people. I looked over and saw people catching fishes they call "pantat."

Everyday people. Everyday living. Im just lucky to see their side of everyday.

Sorry na sabi

I'm in the mood to write Tagalog poems this week, wala lang feel ko lang siguro kasi yung kaibigan kong si Big D, binigyan nya ako ng mga emo Tagalog songs from famous pinoy bands and artists, eh yan tuloy parang nahawa na ako sa mga songs hehe (so blame him!) joke lang pare ko.

Sorry na
Wag ka ng magtampo
Nandito pa rin naman ako.

Sorry na
Wag ka ng magalinlangan
Sa puso ko pa rin ang daan.

Ikaw lang ang laman ng puso't
damdamin ko
Wala pa ring nagbago
Hintay kita lagi sa gabi
Iniisip na lagi kang katabi.

Hindi madaling pakawalan
ang tulad mo
Ordinaryong taong nakilala ko
Pareho tayong ugali
Madalas na nagkakamali.

Lagi pa ring umaasa
Na ako'y bigyan ng sigla
Malungkot ang buhay na ito
Sorry na sabi, ano pa ba ang gusto mo?

Dork!

I was reviewing for an assessment exam yesterday, and just out of the blue, someone YMed me; someone I was longing to hear from. Weird. I just instantly lost my concentration. I dunno what or how to reply back. You see not too long ago, he let go of me for reasons I don't know and I kind of don't want to know because whatever it is I won't understand anyway. We were getting along fine before though, thought there's something more to this friendship we shared. I was thinking along the lines of me "always running away," that probably changed his mind about me. He probably got scared and doubted me when in fact I was ready to take a chance with him. I just needed to see him and tell him personally but we never got that chance to see and meet each other. That's why he probably thought that getting rid of me is the easiest route to stop this madness...good madness.

I still think about him..more often than I thought actually. Sometimes still wondering why he let me go, why he didn't hold on. Coz I WAS going to hold on..yeah was. Oh well, Im just thankful he dropped a line or two yesterday, glad he's alright. Still very busy...I had to smile, because "being busy" is his trademark and it's one of the things I liked in him...hard-working.

Mali bang matakot sayo
Pintig ng puso ko'y iyong iyo
Eto na naman ako
Lalayo, tatakbo palayo sa mundo.

Di ko akalaing iyong dadamhin
Ang hindi pagkikita ng ating bituin
Sana maintindihan mo rin
Minsan ng nasaktan ang aking damdamin.

Mas mabuti na sigurong ganito na muna
Kaysa sugurin natin ang maling panahon dba?
Pero eto lang ang masasabi ko sayo
May lugar ka na sa puso ko.

Behaviors you just have to Understand

Don't be surprised or offended if Americans:

* put their hands in their pockets while talking to you.

* put their feet on tables and desks.

* blow their nose and then return the handkerchief to their pockets.

* slip their shoes off in their office.

* touch their shoes.

* chew gum.

* yawn without covering their mouth.

* say "Bless you" everytime you sneeze.

* cross arms at the chest.

* walk, drive or even ride a bike while eating.

* smile and say "hello" to you even though you dont know each other.

* call comfort rooms as restrooms or bathrooms depending on which state you're in.

* greet you, "how you doing?" instead of "how are you" or ask, "where you at?" instead of "where are you?"

* use car garage as storage bins and closet for things and junks that can't fit inside the house.

* look at you disgustingly when they hear you burp.

* adore drive-thru's even the bank has a drive thru.

* call policeman "police officer"; fireman "firefighter"; postman "postal worker"; steward/stewardess "flight attendant"; waitress "server/waiter"; and chairman "chairperson."

*greet you "Happy Holidays" instead of "Merry Christmas."

So if any of you migrates here in US someday, please keep these thoughts in mind. You don't really have to follow and adopt the norms around here, but I'm just giving you a heads up on what to expect out here in order not to be so naive (or kung sa Tagalog pa para hindi naman mahalatang "fresh from the farm" ka or kung sa Ilonggo naman, "manol" hehe). Nobody said anything about these to me so imagine how naive I was before hehe.

Yeah you're lucky..thank me later! :-)

When We Risk It All

(KG)

We can't blame others when love dwindles away,
For we knew from the start it never promised to stay.

It's just one of those things where the stakes are high,
And sometimes it's forever, and sometimes it's goodbye.

When you love the right way, you will never lose,
No matter what path life may force you to choose.

You may end up with tears or a broken heart,
But you knew what you signed up for from the start.

You can only give what you've got to give,
And if that's not enough, then you must continue to live.

Life will go on and broken hearts will heal,
You must continue on your quest, for that's the deal.

Throw your heart into life and never stall,
For the greatest risk is to risk nothing at all.

You see, love is the only thing that we know,
That can be divided and divided but continue to grow.

And life isn't long enough to lock away our heart,
Just because life may have forced two people apart.

We will continue to love and continue to lose,
We will continue to pick and continue to choose.

And then one day we will just risk it all,
Take the chains off our hearts and dismantle the wall.

The last time we love will be the forever,
And never again will our hearts be forced to sever.

We'll never have doubts that it'll go away,
Because this time, it'll be here to stay.

But until then we must endure all the pain,
For we only see sunshine if we can wait through the rain.

moieee's sunday bulletin

Raincoat, umbrella o sugod sa ulan?
** jacket! hehe.

Sometimes you hate cellphones because___?
** nobody shows me luv..walang kwenta! hehe

Paano mo patayin ang ipis?
** tinatapakan? duh.

Anong una mong pinupuntahan sa mall?
** my shoe store.. wat cn i say, i luv shoes!

Nahulog kna ba sa Stairs?
** yeh daming beses na kakahiya nga.

Msg mo sa mahal mo?
** mahal asan kana, ang tagal mo namang
dumating sa buhay ko.. naiinip na ako! hahaha.

Mahal mo pa ba ex mo?
** hindi na po

Gaano ka kaloyal?
** very! try me! hehe.

Have you fallen in love with your bestfriend?
** tange, babae bessie ko. pero kung lalake man
cguro malamang kse malapitin ako sa lalake eh.
lahat kaibigan ko.

Naiilang ka ba pag ikaw lang ang kumakain at
nakatingin lang ang mga kasama mo?
** hindi sympre.. naku pagkain na yan ano ka ba
hehe jowk.

Bakit may mga taong manhid?
** tama c gl, sumtyms defense mech lng yan.pero
sarap batukan ang mga taong eto ha. hehe

Pano ka magalit?
** silent at minsan hindi namamansin.. wag mo lng
akong kausapin pls.

Anong Maganda/Masarap Gawin sa Outing w/ ur
Barkada?
** beach..sports..road trip..

How was your 2006 Summer?
** one the best times of my life!!!

How long was your longest telebabad?
** 5hrs yata. free namn.

Last place you've been to?
** uhhh the bathroom?! hehe

They say you are:
** intimidating, guy magnet, too mabait na i alwys
get in trouble hehe

How old are you?
** 24

Last thing you drank?
** iced caramel machiatto w/xtra caramel

Last thing you bought for yourself.
** locket

You want to?
** go bck to school again.. charr.. hehe

Bkt nman?
** masarap ang buhay lifetime student eh.. hehe

Mahirap bang umasa?
** oo especially false hopes. i hv a lot.

Anong nafe-feel mo ngayon?
** pressured

What's the last thing you did?
** answered some emails

What song are you listening to right now?
** call me when you're sober - evanescence

Do you receive sweet txt messages?
** minsan when people remembers i exist pla

Busy ka ba?
** feeling lang po hehe

Nagbago ka ba?
** guess im more mature na..more strongwilled
and determined than i was b4. i cn now speak up
for myself and now learning how to say NO.. which
i had a freakin hard time b4 kse nga "good girL"
hehe.

Why Blog Ur Shit?

I woke up at 12nn today, gosh nobody even bothered to wake me up! What if I died in my sleep or something, nobody would find out. haha, Im so brutal I know. I reached out and grabbed my cellphones. my local cel said 3missed calls and a voicemail while my roaming cel was none, how sad (why did I even bother to have a roaming when nobody bothers to text me huhuhu) Anyway, the missed calls and voicemail were from dad(of course!) He thought I went somewhere coz nobody was answering the house phone, apparently nobody was indeed home except me.

I sighed, did my morning shower and rituals and went downstairs. No food. As usual. Im a bad cook xo I went and made myself a sandwich instead. While munching with glee, I checked my emails and stuff. A friend in my myspace sent me a message telling me that she had checked out my blogs here and it was great. She had a fun time reading them(thanks abi!) and then she asked me why do you like broadcasting your shit to the world? Are blogs better than diaries?

I laughed. I had thought and asked myself those questions a million times already too, why do I blog anyway? Why dont I write in a diary where it's more private? Well it's simple. I own a diary...diaries actually, since I was 8years old. And Ive written in every one of them every single day. But you see, when diaries are full already, you keep them and sometimes (as forgetful as I am), I do forget about them, and even misplace them because I transfer a lot, I dont even have a permanent zipcode when I was growing up. So it's like no use writing on diaries anymore because when Im done with them, I dont do anything but keep them. So for me, it's like a waste of time.

So when this "blog craze" stormed around the net and I happened to be a thousand miles away from what I used to call "home" and was bored to death that I was nearly suicidal, I decided to try blogging for a change, just to keep me sane and at least it wouldnt hurt as much as cutting oneself right? And it did work. Since writing is where Im good at (or so I think I am)...it opened up my views again and I started to feel good about myself...feel good about expressing more of me than hiding it and feeling the hurt. Blogging has been my therapy and it didnt fail me one bit. True, who would want to read my blogs which consist of mostly random chatters of my life? But I dont care who reads them. If people like reading them, great I really appreciate it so much, it makes me feel good. If they dont like reading them, then my advice is not to read any of my blogs or dont even go to my site at all.

In blogs, I can somehow connect with people who are experiencing my dilemmas as well or if not just connect with people who are great advisers and would advice me what to do or not to do in situations Im in. I really appreciate people that just randomly read my site without me telling them to do so, and would actually comment and advise. Though I dont know them personally, but I can feel the sincerity inside them. And by that, they already made my day worth living. This is just a simple pleasure I have in my mixed life. Diaries are still great, but if you have the luxury to own computer facilities or laptop for that matter, it's easier to type up your feelings instead (especially when you're crying). Besides, we live in a world where technologies just get better and better that those traditional people are now having a hard time coping up with reality. This is reality people, and sometimes, it wouldnt hurt to change too you know.

I just wish that when technology has developed flying cars, I would still be around to own or even just ride in them! hehehe. (silly me!)

STEP UP (My Movie Review)

This movie is a mixture of romantic-comedy, drama and of course lots of dancing! It's about a talented dancer but rebel, Tyler Gage (Channing Tatum), who's only dream is to one day make it out there instead of living unfullfilled for the rest of his life. In some unruly behavior, Tyler (Tatum), got stuck with a privileged ballet dancer, Nora (Jenna Dewan), who's dream lies solely on impressing the scouts at their senior showcase. Nora's (Dewan) partner got into an accident and now she's caught up in a situation of finding a new partner and rehearsing fast in time for the showcase. Tyler (Tatum) of course, because Nora (Dewan) doesn't have a choice, came to her rescue but with a twist.

The moral of the story: Everyone deserves a chance to follow their dreams but a few get only one shot.

I fell in-love with this movie because not only was the actor, Channing Tatum supperrr uberr hot hehe, but the movie didn't come out cheesy as I thought it would be. Since the storyline was quite predictable already, I thought it would just be plain and draggy and the kind of movie wherein you'll forget about it tomorrow. I was wrong. The dances attracted me so much, I wished I didn't argue with my mom when she was trying to sign me up for ballet classes when I was a kid hehe. And OMG, I didn't think Channing Tatum can dance like that, I liked him as a football stud in She's the Man with Amanda Bynes but in this movie, as a dancer slash rebel??? Liked him even more hehe.

And so you know, my dad (it was a Friday Family Movie Night btw), who usually falls asleep 10minutes after every movie starts, didn't sleep at all hehehe. By that thought, you'd want to rate this movie a 5star indeed. Cheers to dad!

It's a fun movie for the whole family. If you like an "up-beat feel good" movie just to pass the time away...then you should watch this.

RARE TREASURE

picture from the stairway of Dylan's Candy Bar in NY

you trust me with your feelings
and brought me to a whole new meaning
a friend you once were to me
now a secret element to my epitome.

you let down your guard when your with me
exchanging looks with great deal of glee
knowing you'll never be more than friends
i just fight back my feelings to reality.

you unload your heartaches to me
this brings joy for i clearly see
the real you inside of that rare beauty
only i can tell, only i can feel freely.

ill treasure our friendship till the end
no road blocks, only lifelong road trips
simple pleasure i'd always appreciate
your presence beyond words surrogates.

FRIENDS vs. HOMIES

picture grabbed from my sunshine

FRIENDS: Would knock on your front door.
HOMIES: Walk right in and say "I'M HOME!"

FRIENDS: Never ask for anything to eat or drink.
HOMIES: Helps themselves and are the reasons why you have no food.

FRIENDS: Call your parents Mr. and Mrs.
HOMIES: Calls your parents DAD and MOM

FRIENDS: Will be there to take your drink away from you when they think you've had enough.
HOMIES: Will look at you stumbling all over the place & say "Bitch drink the rest of that you know we don't waste."

FRIENDS: Would bail you out of jail.
HOMIES: Would be sitting next to you sayin
"We fucked up ... but that shit was fun!

FRIENDS: Borrows your stuff for a few days then gives it back.
HOMIES: Loses your shit and tells you, "My bad...here's a tissue."

FRIENDS: Have never seen you cry.
HOMIES: Wont tell everyone else you cried...just laugh about it with you in private when your not down anymore.

FRIENDS: Only know a few things about you.
HOMIES: Could write a very embarrassing biography on your life story...

FRIENDS: Will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing.
HOMIES: Will kick the whole crowds ass that left you.

FRIENDS: Are only through highschool.
HOMIES: Are for life.

We all want HONESTY, but the TRUTH hurts

Im sad today. Actually sad since 2days ago. My bestfriend had turn her back on me. She had completely blocked me out of her life for reasons I dont want to go over again. It hurts me so much I could barely finish my everyday chores and shit anymore. Why is this happening to me, when all I ever did was care and understand, be patient and honest. I feel sick right now. I don't like the feeling of being the bad guy, coz I was never one. And now I guess I am bad...bad enough that my bestfriend treated me like I'm a computer file, deleted from her system just like that.

One of our friends adviced me to keep my blogs from the group but I can't do it(Im sorry, but really I appreciate what you said les). Writing is the only way and the reason why I'm still here and not in some mental institution right now. Writing keeps me sane. And so I'm not keeping my blogs from anyone. All are still free to drop in and read anytime they want. This is my only gateway to sanity so please dont take my freedom of writing away from me.

A huge part of my cheerfulness just disappeared. lost. I feel so alone. God knows how much I'd like to hang myself right now. I've been crying for the past 3days and my mom even asked me when I brought her to work this afternoon, why do you look like somebody just died? I just shrugged and adjusted the volume of the music, louder and said to myself,

I'll just give her time and hope she'll come around.

I can't let go of her, not now and I never will.

I dont want her to understand everything I say, coz that's just impossible,

I just want her to know everything because she's, afterall, my bestfriend.

And so another day will sign off again, but the sad truth is, I am still alone a thousand miles away.

TAGLISH NAMAN..Hirap mag-Express eh

Pumunta ako sa Health Occupations office sa school ngayon to ask for another nursing application form kasi hindi ko na makita yung dating form ko, ewan ko kung saan ko na nailagay o naitago. The secretary who handed me the forms said that the due dates for turning in applicatoins would be on or before Jan 5, 2007 and the classes will start on February for the LVN-RN bridge program. I said thanks and left. 9am pa lang pero ang araw ay parang kala mo eh tanghaling tapat na. It was too early to go home since I just got there, tapos I spent the whole 15 minutes para lang maghanap ng mapaparkingan at saka I even paid a buck for it. So I said, I'd stay na lang muna sa school for an hour for all its worth. I made my way to the library, went inside, sat down at my usual spot, behind the last rows of book shelves at the very end of the upper level hallway, and decided to fill up the application form I was holding.

Pagkasulat ko pa lang ng pangalan ko sa form, nalungkot na ako at nagmuni-muni. Ano ba 'tong ginagawa ko sa buhay ko, bat ko ba pinipilit ang sarili ko sa mga bagay na hindi ko gustong gawin? Dahil ba sa Nursing lang ang more stable, more benefits at more pay...dapat dun din ako? Minsan, naisip ko, sana hindi na lang ako nagmigrate dito sa America. O kung nagmigrate man, sana nung elementary o highschool pa ako. At least yun, makakaadjust pa ako at hindi pa masyadong buo ang mga munting pangarap ko sa buhay. Pero yung magmigrate ako sa kalagitnaan ng paggagraduate ko ng kolehiyo?!?! Its fucked up. My goals in life just shattered into pieces 4years ago and I can still here the pieces shattering until now. I told my parents about this noon pa man. Pero sabi nila, try mo lang maging nurse, mag LVN ka at least kung magproproceed ka ng RN or ibang course madali na lang kasi you can go to school and work at the same time. Well when you felt like shit, like I was before, at sabihan ka ng mga comforting words like that, sympre parang its the only good idea you've ever heard. Tutal try lang naman eh, and then after that kung ayaw ko pa rin nga talaga ng Nursing then I have the option not to proceed to RN dba?

Dba mah ass.. nakatapos na lang ako at ayoko pa rin maging nurse. Ewan ko nga kung bakit nakatapos pa ako eh, I guess I just stuck it out in the LVN program because I want to please my parents. Sympre pag ikaw ang panganay daming standards na dapat ma reach. So I talked to them again about not wanting to proceed to RN anymore, gusto ko na uling ipagpatuloy ang Medtech ko na hindi natapos kasi nga nagmigrate ako. Aba, hindi pumayag ang mom ko! Bakit pa daw ako magmedtech eh LVN na ako, a year more and Ill be a RN na. Nagiba na naman ang ihip ng hangin. Akala ko ba noon try out lang tong LVN kasi nga walang schools dito ng medtech malapit sa location namin at it was a good decision before. Tapos ngayon Im not entitled to change my course anymore? Pano ako makakaproceed eh I dont like it. I dont like Nursing, what part of that simple sentence dont they understand! Sabi nila matatagalan na ako kung tatapusin ko pa ang medtech...pero yung ang gusto ko, it's not whether I can graduate fast and work immediately, we are talking about loving what you're doing, loving your work and accomplishments sa buhay. Ayokong matulad sa mga taong nagnunurse lang maski napilitan din sila just to have a future here, hindi naman nila kasalanan na ang Pilipinas ay walang2 pagdating sa pagbigay kaunlaran sa mga kapwa tao, pero thats a whole different view kasi Im already here in US, walang bisa na sa akin ang nursing.

For once in my life, gusto ko naman masunod ang gusto ko. Etong isang bagay na magpapabigay clarity at contentment sa life ko. Halos lahat naman na sa akin na, hindi ko ginusto pero talagang swerte lang ako dahil I have such hardworking parents who gives me almost everything in life. Kulang na nga lang, hindi na nila ako pagpatrabahuin. Pero I have goals rin naman, and this one goal Im insisting to them, will be the starting point of my future. I dont want to live in my future kung alam ko lang naman na hindi ako masaya sa ginagawa ko. Para ko lang dinadaya ang sarili ko. Kaya lang...I dont know what else I can do to persuade them to let me do this. I know they trust me that I can do it, takot lang cguro sila. Ah ewan...I have all the determination in the world, I just dont know how to put in into action and move on!

As I looked straight at the long deserted hallway infront of me,

emptiness had crept inside.

How can this happen to me?

I shook my head, sighed, and continued filling up the damn form.

Caught Looking At U

Your look so geniune, so true

Cant forget the day I found you

Mesmerized by your jet black hair so I say

I was caught looking at you today.

You glanced my way, and smiled.

I nearly dropped dead and sighed.

Didnt mean to stare, oh my!

Your smile made it even worse, no lie.

So I continue my nonexistent gesture

But looking at you was worth the pleasure

My lonely soul that lingers

Your mysterious look unmastered.

Momentary bliss..

could this be
im falling back again
the you and me
is this a possibility?

i know this bliss
will never last a crisis
but now im just happy
the thought of it is more than
a party

cast a sunshine over my head
the feeling so great i have
this way its been read
i dont really care what's been said.

NEW YORK, here I come! (Aug 14-20, 2006)

(MON) After packing the night before, I was too excited to sleep so I didn't (again!?!) hehe. We were at Ontario International Airport around 4am because we had an early flight. I'm so excited because not only am I going to another state this year, but also because it's my first time riding an airplane by myself (I know I'm going with my younger sister) but still I'm the adult responsible for this trip. I know my reasons are sorta weird hehe but it's my long time dream to go on trips alone, not that I don't want company, it's just a wonderful feeling that's all.

Anyway, we arrrived Forth Worth, Tx Airport (a stopover) around noon. We rode the Skylink, trains taking passengers to their specific terminal areas, to Terminal D. It was my first time riding a train going around an airport so it was cool! I was having fun already hehe. Then we boarded an hour later for NY.

Around 5pm eastern time (3hrs ahead pacific time) we arrived La Guardia Airport, NY. Wooh the weather was killing me, it was about 93 degrees F outside and it was darn humid. Our Aunt Bing had a hard time finding a parking spot so we just took the liberty to wait for her outside the passenger pick up. After saying hellos and beso2x and stuff, we drove around downtown Manhattan so as to not waste any time. We stopped by Chinatown, where we bought the famous yummy dumplings, and ate ice cream at the ice cream factory. Then we stopped at Rockefeller Center, of course it was summer so there was no ice skating rink there like we usually see on tv, but it was pretty because different flags were raised surrounding the center and instead of the ice skating rink, different shops and coffee houses emerged. We drove by St. Patrick's Church, one of the big churches downtown and Aunt Bing pointed to us the Empire State building but we didn't go inside it anymore because there's nothing really much to see but the feeling of really in New York hehe..We also visited the former Twin Tower spot, now called Ground Zero. It was under construction already, they said they were going to put up a burial ground or cemetery in honor of those who passed. Around night time, we passed by Time Square. There was nothing really special about it, except maybe lots of lights, billboards everywhere, and just a busy street that's all hehe. We took pictures and went home.

(TUES) My cousins Angeli and Loradelle, brought us to the Statue of Liberty, it was great! I finally got to see the statue for real. In going near the statue, we rode a ferry crossing Hudson River. I took alot of pictures because this everything's a first time for me. After going around and taking pictures we were all famished. So we ate at a refreshment area while we waited for the next ferry to take us back to the city.

Then my friend Lence, picked me up at 43rd & 5th streets around 6pm, because both of us are going to sleep over at our friend Abigail's house. They are my grade 3 classmates now good friends from Cebu. When we arrived at Abby's place, we were all so excited and happy to see each other again. It has been 12years since we last bonded and this was unbelievable. We ate dinner at a Diner around the area and then the three of us decided to go for a midnight walk along Long Beach boardwalk. Then after that we went back to Abby's place and drank Vodka with sprite, ate cheetos and talked about lovelife hayyy.. hehe! Around 5am, we all decided to sleep for a little bit just to shake off those Vodka. But when I signed on my Yahoo messenger, Cf was online so I chatted with him for a bit and I ended up sleeping an hour later hehe. 8:30am we all greeted Abby's mom in the living room. She just came home from work and was happy to see Lence and I. We had breakfast at IHOP and had picture taking outside Abby's house. After that, Lence took me home.

(WED) When we got home, Uncle Ernie, brought us to Atlantic City, New Jersey. It was a different kind of atmosphere when we entered New Jersey crossing the George Washington bridge. It was more subdued, laid-back, more trees and I guess less polluted than New York. Atlantic City was like little Vegas, only it was quiet there and there's nothing really much to see except the famous boardwalk they have and the many casinos that people go to oftentimes.

(THUR) Angeli and her friends, Pedro and Marie, took me and my sister around Manhattan, the New Yorker way, by riding subway trains and walking hehe. We rode the subway train to Coney Island, we ate the famous Nathan's hotdog and played mini golf afterwards. Then we got on the train again to Serendipity, the famous little restaurant shown in the movie, Serendipity, which stars Kate Beckingsale and John Cusack ---which also happens to be my all time favorite movie ever! We got to eat the famous Frozen Hot Chocolate there. We also bought candy treats for my little brother at Dylan's Candy Bar. Around night fall, we lined up to get our dinner at a Chicken 'n Rice stand at the corner of 53rd and 6th streets. It was famous for their white sauce they put on the food they serve. People line up for hours just to avail of this food so I highly recommend that if any of you happen to go to New York, you should really try out their food or contact me for more info!

(FRI) Aunt Bing and the kids brought us to Palisades Mall. One of the bigger malls near their place. We spent the whole day there, mostly window shopping of course hehe. Then we ate at White Castle, serving mini burgers and then around 10pm when we were about to go home, they decided to watch a movie, Material Girls, starring Haley and Hillary Duff. It was free because Nanay, Aunt Bing's mom, works at that theater.

(SAT) Aunt Bing planned a surprise birthday party for Angeli. So I went with her to get the food she ordered down at Jersey City Filipino restaurant. Then after that she went with me to buy New York shirts at Chinatown. After the party ended, my cousins decided to watch a movie (again?!), Accepted, since we weren't in the mood to sleep anymore. I drove because it was already night time and Aunt Bing doesn't want Angeli to drive during nights.

(SUN) It was a long line for check in at La Guardia Airport on our way back to Cali. I thought we were going to miss our flight because of the darn lines! We were rushing as we looked for our terminal. But as we boarded the airplane, I was relieved and my mood subsided and I slept the whole entire trip. We arrived Ontario Airport at 12:30pm, dad and my bro picked us up and I slept again. Too tired. But it was great!

Overnight trip to SACRAMENTO, CA (Aug 12-13,2006)

I'm back in Cali again... *sigh* My trip to the Philippines had officially ended. I am now already up and about at 6:15am rummaging my stuff unpacking and packing again. We are heading to Sacramento today and to New York on Monday. I can now say that this year is the coolest year ever coz Idid a lot of traveling woohhoo!

We drove to Sacramento for almost 9hrs., stopping by Fresno to eat lunch at McDonalds. The hotel we stayed in, Holiday Inn Sacramento Capitol-Plaza, was awesome. It was situated at the heart of the city and just about every tourist attractions were accessible by foot.

Our first stop was the the California State Capitol Building. It was nothing but a building really, it was just that the white towering facade of this can really capture your sight with awe. You'll never miss it because it's a trademark seen in millions of postcards sold all over the world. Then we went to Old Town Sacramento, it's not literally old as how it was called but the place was patterned to that of the western era where you see in movies, two men drawing guns face to face kind of pattern hehe. Souvenir shops and restaurants flood the area. At the back of these area is the Sacramento River. There's a boardwalk in going there where cruise boats servicing one hour trips around the river can be located. Of course we rode one of the one-hour cruise they have. It was refreshing. The scenery was absolutely gorgeous, lots of greeneries around, yachts everywhere, and river houses like that in the movies, where the houses have their own dock port for their boats (Dawson's creek style). Simply pleasing to the eye! Im such a sucker for these atmospheres and now here I am actually seeing it with my own eyes.

That's probably why most middle aged-retiree Americans would want to live in Sacramento, it's laid-back and peaceful.

The next day, we ate the complimentary buffet breakfast served at the hotel restaurant and then went to Our Lady of the Blessed Sacrament Church to hear mass. This particular church was also one of the tourist attractions in Sacramento, actually the church personnels there offer guided tours around and about the church. After mass at 11:30am, we went back to the hotel to check out our stuff. Our final place of visit was the Governor's Mansion, this is where the California governors have lived when they're on duty. It's nothing spectacular inside, just a run down of the past governors of California and the history behind their responsibilities and what they did for the state.

We headed home back to San Bernardino where I have to unpack and pack up again for New York in the morning. Tired yet loving it.