Dork!

I was reviewing for an assessment exam yesterday, and just out of the blue, someone YMed me; someone I was longing to hear from. Weird. I just instantly lost my concentration. I dunno what or how to reply back. You see not too long ago, he let go of me for reasons I don't know and I kind of don't want to know because whatever it is I won't understand anyway. We were getting along fine before though, thought there's something more to this friendship we shared. I was thinking along the lines of me "always running away," that probably changed his mind about me. He probably got scared and doubted me when in fact I was ready to take a chance with him. I just needed to see him and tell him personally but we never got that chance to see and meet each other. That's why he probably thought that getting rid of me is the easiest route to stop this madness...good madness.

I still think about him..more often than I thought actually. Sometimes still wondering why he let me go, why he didn't hold on. Coz I WAS going to hold on..yeah was. Oh well, Im just thankful he dropped a line or two yesterday, glad he's alright. Still very busy...I had to smile, because "being busy" is his trademark and it's one of the things I liked in him...hard-working.

Mali bang matakot sayo
Pintig ng puso ko'y iyong iyo
Eto na naman ako
Lalayo, tatakbo palayo sa mundo.

Di ko akalaing iyong dadamhin
Ang hindi pagkikita ng ating bituin
Sana maintindihan mo rin
Minsan ng nasaktan ang aking damdamin.

Mas mabuti na sigurong ganito na muna
Kaysa sugurin natin ang maling panahon dba?
Pero eto lang ang masasabi ko sayo
May lugar ka na sa puso ko.