Leaving behind.

I am already missing my friends here. My bestghurl, Odee, is already feeling sad about me leaving. Sabi nya, even though we don't talk often because we are both busy at least she knows I am just 30 minutes away from her, it's already a comfort for her to have that in mind. Pero ngayong aalis ako, not only will we not talk often, but also we are miles away from each other na. She's been my instant twin, sister, and stomachmates ever since she approach me to eat lunch with them in school before. I was a loner and she was this long lasting energetic ghal who gives smiles and contagious laughter to everyone. Hayyyy... I know they will always have my back naman and I won't be long. Time will fly by and I'll be back before we know it. Though I also have friends there still it's a different set of people whom I love in their own unique ways.

Today we went to our attorney and submitted the papers for my reentry permit and then I spent the rest of the day teaching my parents how to use and download things and stuffs in the computer and also I taught them how to use the yahoo messenger, how to video chat and use a webcam just the basic things they need to know. They hardly use the computer because they are spoiled by me, I do their personal stuffs for them, but now that I'm leaving, they have no choice but to learn for themselves. I'm sure it would be hard for them all to function without me around for a while because I mostly do all the technical support around the house. I'm the "hands-on"// "go to" gal. I hate leaving them on their own but they know I can't always be around anymore. They will eventually manage. Right now I have to listen to myself na naman, I'll put myself first na uli because I have to seek my own future, and my own happiness.

Man, I wanna cry... I feel awful leaving especially that this is a different kind of leave. But I have to continue what I've started and finish it as soon as possible or else I will never ever have this kind of opportunity again. It's for the best!