If only.

If only I knew how and was influenced by a bunch of my friends to smoke, I would probably be a chain smoker by now. My personality of "easily getting bored" can totally affect the whole thing. Thank God I was thought martial law discipline (hehe!) or else my lungs are a goner already. Today I attended mass and it was Easter Sunday, a big celebration actually, bigger than Christmas the priest had said a while ago because birth is a good thing, but being reborn and risen from the dead is the greatest, so that's why hehe, hey I listen to the Gospel's good news too you know.

Anyway, I wish I'd have my VW bug really soon so that I can just go wherever I want and feel safe especially going out alone, at least I have a getaway car when things get sidetracked or something and plus when I go study at a coffeeshop I won't mind staying a wee bit longer without hassle of hailing a taxicab at night. I mean seriously. If only my overall appearance can just blend in with the crowd I won't mind riding the jeepney at night time, but I don't, so you get what I mean right?

Oh well, a little later I'll be going to school for the signing of clearances and of course checking my overall grade if I can proceed to 3rd year. I'm actually so anxious already, my eyes are sleepy but my mind can't seem to relax because of this! Ugh and plus I dunno what happened to my boyfriend, he didn't say anything about leaving early from work or where he's been. Didn't even say goodbye, how sad. But I can't wait anymore, I'm going to bed. I'm sure he has a pretty good explanation later so au revoir and wish me luck!