Isn't it ironic, don't you think?

Right when he confessed that he loves her, "Love kita! May reklamo? Hehehe. Basta ba happy tayo of what we have right now, it doesn't really matter what the rest is like."

She took the next best thing for both of them which is to tell him the truth that she is already committed to someone else in a what if question kinda way, "What if I tell you I'm about to get married, would it still not matter to you?"

After that thought, the guy is unreachable till now. His phone's off, and his yahoo messenger which is almost always online or on SMS is now offline.

She, on the otherhand, is still awake at 4 in the morning of the next day.

Good riddance because at least she ditched the temptation once and for all, but why does she feel so crappy?

Kwento-kwento lang.

Kinakabahan ako sobraaaaahhhh!!! 2nd rotation na mamaya, 3-11pm ako sa semi-private ward. Since we haven't been used to the hospital floor kasi unang rotation ko ay delivery room na wala naman talaga kaming ginagawa doon. Eto mamaya as in talagang interaction with patients na. Phew! Not that I'm a newbie on this, pero its a different setting. Wala naman kasing ward sa states eh and the people here are well, temperamental, you never know what you gonna get - kinda people. Oh well, help me God! I'm also somewhat excited, it's a different experience once again. I don't know if the clinical instructors going to be suplada o mabait. Hopefully the latter one. Anyway, changing topic...punta naman tayo sa kwentong LOVE! hehe.

A friend of mine confided to me, sabi nya she's happy with her relationship with her boyfriend, and I can very well see naman, then all of a sudden, her "forgotten special someone" came back in her life. Someone whom she thought na parang lumipas lang ang mga feelings nila sa isa't-isa ay one day nagparamdam daw. So tinanong ko cya kung what caused the "lumipas" drama at d nila tinuloy noong may special something pa sila. Sagot nya, "wala lang, na-Cold feet".

So anyway, lumipas ang ilang months biglang nagsend ng message sa kanya ang guy, Cge ilagay na lang natin sa name na, "Racer" kasi mahilig daw to sa mga kotseng pangkarera. Nagtanong lang naman si Racer kung galit ba daw sa kanya ang friend ko. At dun na nagsimula ang pagco-communicate nila muli. Para naman daw walang nagiba. Yung feelings nila, yung "something" ni Racer sa kanya daw ay sadyang nafefeel nya pa rin. More na nga ngayon. Panay na daw ang tawag, tas yung mga simpleng kilig factors are starting to come back to her.

As she was telling me this, napa smile ako. This is from a lady who really heck love her boyfriend so much na wala ngayon dito, nurse kasi sa states. Naku na confuse cya tuloy :-) She asked how to go about with this dilemma. Although alam ng boyfriend nya kung ilang ex meron cya and all pero etong si Racer for some reason eh nakalimutan nyang ikwento man lang noon sa boyfriend nya. D nga rin nya halos maisip kung bakit d nya to namention etong topic noon. Para naman daw kasing isang lukso ng dugo lang yun. Ni hindi pa nga nya nakikita si Racer ever in her life, pero bakit ganun na lang kalakas ang feeling nila sa isa't - isa.

I told her that wala naman talagang masama dito, as long as she won't go beyond what they have right now. She has to resist the temptation for as long as she can. And also, she should weigh things, sino ba talaga ang mas lamang na "feeling" or na "something" between her boyfriend and Racer. Kasi eventhough you haven't met someone personally pero nakita mo na cya sa mga pics and you have a more or less description of his personality, ang love laging nandyan yan eh, always waiting to strike, d naman yan pinipili kung nakita mo man o wala yung isang tao. Yan ang tunay na "love is blind" meaning hindi mo kailangan makita ang anyo ng isang tao in order to love.

My friend slapped me playfully on my arm, sabi nya, mas lalo ko daw ginulo. hahaha! Abai sabi ko naghihingi ka ng advice eh, alangan namang kakampihan ko boyfriend mo, dapat fair ang pagadvice ko para makapag isip ka. She smiled, thank me and we resumed talking about other stuff.

Sadyang ang dami ng temptations. And I can very well relate to her kasi sympre malayo din ang mahal ko. But then again, as long as your relationship is strong enough, nothing will ruin it. Challenges kung baga. Minsan kasi mahirap magmahal na wala naman cya sa katabi mo. Time passes by, nakakapagod din na wala kang mabalingan ng mga sama ng loob, wala kang makwentuhan ng mga anong nangyari sa pang-araw araw mo at wala kang mayakap kapag nalulungkot ka. It's really different if his presence is just around the corner kahit pa ba you both have the luxury of calling each other everyday, d pa rin sapat yun. You get me? :-)

Kaya minsan nagkakalabu-an dahil there are just some things you can replace with just calls kahit pa man every minute yan! Siguro kahit gaano pa kahaba pasensya mo, sometimes you can't take it anymore. And it'll always result to arguements. Haaaiiiii love, sobra pa sa stimulants combined. Supper... once it triggers. You can't help it.

Yum.

In summary, today was a rather good day. My quizzes are up and running well again, and I'm more in tune with what's happening around me. I'm beginning to like them. They ain't that bad after all. Yeah, I'm talking about the class I'm with now and till I graduate. I admit, competency will always be present, but I'm now starting to adjust that this is where I am now and I should join or forever will I torture myself.

Thanks Chao for the nursing t-shirt! Haha, I asked one of my former classmate, last semester, last acquaintance party if I can have his shirt since they made one for their section and we didn't. We only had a class customized buttons to signify our section. Gladly he said yes and he'll just give it to me once he washed it first. Well he texted me early this morning where my first period classroom was and he brought the t-shirt to me. Yipee I have a nursing t-shirt already for free! I don't really collect t-shirts, it just so happens that the shirt prints was a good one. So I asked if I can have it. Silly me.

I also finished my Community Development report and though our professor kept butting in when I was still reporting and discussing, it didn't really matter. I just wanted to get things over with. It's a burden to talk in front. I hate public speaking. Seriously! But all is well, thanks God.

Got home around 8:52pm, right when I was at the gate my boyfriend called and told me that he won't be able to chat with me later because he has basketball practice. In times before, I would feel bad about this but now, I'm starting to get used to it. I don't mind not being able to chat at all. I don't mind him not calling me everyday anymore but he still does. We always fight over this before because I don't like not having communication everyday, unlike those who are also in the same situation as we do, LDR, that they can last a day, or even a week of no communication at all. WELL I DON'T. But I don't want to start acting needy and pathetic so I'm adjusting. And in due time, I'd probably get over and can even last a month. I still feel bad, but I can't do anything about it. Coz the more I throw tantrums, the more my boyfriend thinks that I don't understand. So I'm not going to anymore. Whenever he says something, I'll just try to understand. So honey, cheers to that!

Oh well... life goes on right? I'll just do my assignment and sleep I guess. No use looking at an empty laptop with no one to talk to anyway right? Bitterness of life. Taste it. Yum.

OR/DR First Hospital Rotation, Well Worth IT!

Home sweet home! Phew!

I came home from a 3-day inter island OR/DR duty @ Guimaras Provincial Hospital. It's a 30minutes boat ride plus another 15 minutes jeepney travel. It was a great experience! I now know how my mom feels from a straight 16-hour duty. Kakaantok grabe! Kasi since 7am-3pm ako, walang nanganganak during that time, eh kailangan ko talaga maski isa lang ng babycare, assisted delivery score, so I had to sacrifice and be on-call pagka 11pm-7am that same day. Tapos ang malala pa nun, pagka 7am naman, duty na kaagad. Ala eh, 10minutes lang ata ako nagshower sa boarding house at nagchange na naman para pumasok ng regular duty ko ng 7am. Haiii para akong zombie sa duty. Tinatawanan na nga lang ako ng C.I namin kasi talagang halata sa face kong "I need sleep!"

But anyway, at least I scored that on call night. Tatlong sunod-sunod na deliveries ba naman! Eh nagsawa na ako! hahaha. At least when we move to the ward next week, panibagong experience naman. I will miss our batchoy times especially kung wala kaming ginagawa sa delivery room, we always ask permission from mam to eat batchoy outside the hospital. Feeling ko nga tumaba ako sa duty na to, kainis! hahaha. Ala na kasing inatupag kundi kumain at magbilang ng oras para uwi-an na. Nilalangaw talaga ang D/R pag umaga.

I came home and found out my aunt is here. Good, at least I have somebody to talk to about my experiences in the island. I will miss that place and I'll be looking forward for my completions there. Yun ang pipiliin kong hospital if ever we need to do our completions during our senior year.

Oh, today is 08-08-08. Sabi sa feng shui at mga chinese chuvaness, malas daw ang araw na to contradictory sa sabi nilang swerte daw pagtatlo ang 8, tama ba ako??? Yung mga chinoy dyan speak up! hehehe. But anyway, it depends upon how you forsee the day siguro. Today wasn't that bad for me actually, ok lang.

I missed my honey for three days, pero he always sees to it that he calls everyday. So far he's doing a pretty good job. Di nya ako pinapaasa. Hmmm.. just one of the many reasons why I love him sooooo much. Tell me about the game hon tomorrow k! Mwwwwaaaaahhhhh.

Sige, pahinga na rin kayo. Ciao for now. PS>>> Welcome back to Ms. Kathie n Kulit Keloyd (hindi ako taga-cebu, taga-iloilo ako! bisaya lang ang language namin but doesnt mean malapit yun, maski pa parehong visayas. wwaaahhh.)

CHANGED.

Ang mahal na pla magpalaundry ng comforters ngaun! It's 210-260php already depending on the size of the sheets. Good thing they accept staggered payments so I paid half of the total payment for the 5 comforter pieces to be washed. Coz if I paid them in full, baka wala na akong pera for my expensive duties. This week pa naman, we are obliged to stay in the island of Guimaras already for our 3-day hospital duties sa provinical hospital nila. The school have a boarding house there, with most of the rooms air-conditioned with extra payment of course and fairly new.

Phew! Buti na lang Sunday na, although its school again tomorrow. Kasi hirap kung Friday and Saturday ang daming invitations for night outs, dinners and hangouts. Mahirap talaga kapag sobrang daming friends! Alam mo ba kung ilang invitations ang tinurn-down ko last night? 4 invites. Grabe ewan ko ba kung bakit hindi sila makontento na sila lang ang lumabas at hindi ako kasama, hehehe! But anyway I survived the night doing actually nothing kasi ayoko rin mag aral. So maski bored nanood na lang ako ng dvd, "Definitely Maybe" coz for some reason, it's been recommended to me na panoorin ko daw kasi maganda. Hmmm... maganda nga naman. It's a feel good movie, kung ayaw mong mag over analyze masyado or ayaw mo ring mag cry over o makilig ng super duper, this is the movie to watch. Pero the best pa rin yung movie ni Papa Lloydee and Sarah na "A Very Special Love." hehe, yup I'm a sucker for pinoy love story movies noh! Maski sabihin nyo pang korny! Hmmm don't care. Cute lang panoorin kasi more na nakakarelate ako sa mga pinoy love stories kasi it's like based in real life na ginawang movie lang.

Oh well... I hope tomorrow will have a miracle sa school! I hate Mondays eh, coz I get off at 830 in the evenings. booo! So gotta study, buddy! Ciao for now.

PS... I changed the name of my site and look and feel of it. This is now more me. Have a good night bloggers!

Just wanna see you smile.

A fellow nurse sent this message to me a while ago.

FUN FACTS FROM INFECTION CONTROL

1/ During an hour's swimming at a pool, you will ingest 1/12 of a liter of urine.

2/ In an average day, your hand comes into indirect contact with 15 penises by touching door knobs, etc.

3/ Annually, you swallow 12 pubic hairs from fast foods.

4/ Annually, you swallow 14 insects while sleeping.

5/ Annually, you shake hands with 6 men who have masturbated & failed to wash their hands.

Ey.. don't blame me, it's from Reader's Digest actually! hehehehe...