School's finally over and Yehey for me, I've done my part and I'll be graduating this May. I am happy, really... but you know the feeling of not really bursting out of happiness kind of feeling? Yeah well, that's what I'm feeling right now and you probably know why.
Now that I'm done, I have no choice but to leave and go back to California for the second time around and for good. I know it's suppose to be great, living in the land of milk and honey, but that's how people who haven't live there say, for me it's different, it's really different compared here and for 3 years of my stay here in the Philippines it saddens me to leave those wonderful people I've met and those people who left a mark in my heart and helped me feel welcome here.
And yeah you can say that I've been here done that leaving part thingy but that was before, there's an enormous difference now, and leaving the second time around sucks and darn hurts. I've already established rapport and when your not so young anymore, it's already complicated when change is directed towards you. Now I have to establish another one of my winning self when I go back to Cali because it's a different ballgame out there but I'm pretty positive that I'd make it far and successful.
But right now, I'm just so bummed out, getting a call from dad that he already arranged my plane ticket back home and stuffs like that, and the date is really fast approaching so I don't know, mixed emotions really.
*BIG SIGH* Soooooooo freakin' sad dude..
Now that I'm done, I have no choice but to leave and go back to California for the second time around and for good. I know it's suppose to be great, living in the land of milk and honey, but that's how people who haven't live there say, for me it's different, it's really different compared here and for 3 years of my stay here in the Philippines it saddens me to leave those wonderful people I've met and those people who left a mark in my heart and helped me feel welcome here.
And yeah you can say that I've been here done that leaving part thingy but that was before, there's an enormous difference now, and leaving the second time around sucks and darn hurts. I've already established rapport and when your not so young anymore, it's already complicated when change is directed towards you. Now I have to establish another one of my winning self when I go back to Cali because it's a different ballgame out there but I'm pretty positive that I'd make it far and successful.
But right now, I'm just so bummed out, getting a call from dad that he already arranged my plane ticket back home and stuffs like that, and the date is really fast approaching so I don't know, mixed emotions really.
*BIG SIGH* Soooooooo freakin' sad dude..
2 comments:
Oh Cee, I'm teary-eyed here. Never thought that it will be this sad, I mean the end of schooling. But this is how the show goes... Lets just play our part. =(
I know Romz. It's really sad leaving once again. I've learned to love you all here and it's always sad to leave the people that made a mark in my life in one way or another. But there's always a rainbow after the rain. Let's just chase and catch that rainbow!
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