12/13/06

Just love in Silence.. i guess

Naranasan nyo na ba ang mga panandali-ang saya ng pseudo-love? Yun bang u think you are falling in-love or crushing on someone na tapos bigla na lang *poof!* iniwan ka na naman sa kawalan? At to think pseudo lang yan ha, what more kung totoong nangyari yan sa totoong love. Hayy..mahirap masangkot sa mga ganitong sitwasyon. Alam mo ngang may nagmamahal sayo pero hindi naman pwede kasi there are just some things to consider...lalong lalo na kapag committed kana, or d naman kaya ay committed na ang taong nagtapat na mahal ka.

It's not a bad thing to say your true feelings to someone eventhough you know for a fact na malayong maging kayo. It just happens. Mahirap nga lang kapag nakapagtapat ka nga tapos hindi mo rin pla akalaing pareho din kayong nafefeel at nagtapat din cya sayo. Naku! Edi imbis na lumuwag na sana ang kalooban mo, humigpit times 2 na kasi mutual pla ang feelings nyo! Kaya lang, merong malaking PERO na in english, BUT. Pero meron na cyang gf. But she has a bf.

Napaisip ka tuloy, at mas naguluhan. U then try to get to know more of that person, to weigh things kung maging kayo nga, ano ang possiblity? Meron kayang future? Is there a chance na if you risk losing "whom you already have" mas magiging happy ka kaya? OR all will fail and you will then make sisi to yourself why you risked it pa. OR if you risk letting go of "whom you want to be with" there's a possibility naman na you'll never find the happiness that you seek and will always ask yourself the buwisit question, "what if"?

No one risks being hurt. Maski gusto mo nga ang isang tao pero kung hindi nga naman talaga pwede bakit naman pagpipilitan. And don't give false assurances to a person kasi masakit yun. Don't try to wait or let someone you want to be with wait... eh pano kung magwork out kayo ng "whom you already have" where does that leave "whom you want to be with"? Edi mas nasakatan mo sya. Hayaan mo na lang, maski sabihin man nating don't wait, there's a part of us that wants to wait, masyado tayong in touch with our feelings especially ang mga girls. We love to have our own happy endings, and we deserve to have one talaga.

And you know what is the best solution for this dilemma? Mamili ka. Dun ka ba sa taong presently yours and you're somehow sure of things OR you'll risk going for that person na hindi ka naman sure kung may future kayo pero nangingibabaw naman ang kaligayahan mo just by the thought of her/him atsaka how much more kung maging kayo?

Pwede ring hindi mamili. You can always LOVE IN SILENCE and do nothing at all. Tingnan natin kung hanggang saan ang kaya mo.

But one thing is FOR SURE: YOU CAN'T HAVE THEM BOTH, at lalo ng YOU CAN'T LOVE TWO BIRDS AT THE SAME TIME.

Wala namang ganyanan pare ko.

4 comments:

kath said...

i seldom talk about love or my love life...

but the truth is i have been loving someone in silence these last 6 months... this made me understand love and loving more.
how am i carrying on? surviving.
i have learned to accept that there are things you can't explain but there are reasons why these things happen. im happy but i could be happier (or sad). =)

currently singing the line:
pangarap ka na lang ba? o magiging katotohanan pa...

Cee said...

hehehe.. i love talking about love kse this is how i deal with what ifs; meron pa ba; sana nga; kung alam mo lng --- things. and yes lyk u i love in silence as well.

"i have a lot of boyfriends..hindi nga lang nila alam." -- mahirap maging malungkot sa gnitong sitwasyon eh, kaya yan na lng iniisip ko pra kahit papano maski in my dreams lo naging kmi hehe.

Anonymous said...

grabe naman to moi. prang may tinatamaan ka ah, o sadyang nakakarelate lng talga ako.

hehe asteg.

Cee said...

baka sadyang nakakarelate ka lng.. oiii wlang denial d2 hehehe.