How many of these SIGHS do I still need to have?

From Thursday to Sunday, damn! No activity whatsoever for me! Jeez.. how long can I take this turmoil? Tsk.Tsk.Tsk. I'm so bored outta my brains right now. They say, if you don't have anything to do, just stay home, arrrggghhh, I feel useless when I'm home. I plan things to do, but I never get to do it because I'm too bored to even do it. It's never conducive to do anything productive here around the house. For one thing, there's nobody to talk to but my online friends on YM and there are days when there's really no one to talk to there, they're all "I'm mobile". Yeah, makes me think more that I don't have a life.

Now that money's tight, I don't go out much anymore unless it's an errand or an important thing at school in order to save gas money. I don't text much either to save load. It's all about save, save and save for me right now coz I don't have anywhere else to get money from and I also want to save the hassle my parents are having because of the economic downfall of US right now. Although the dollar rate is going back up again, well it's different back there. I'm so concerned with things back home. I wish I could go back and work to help them. I can't bare talking to my sister telling me about having no allowance and instead of having Friday/Sunday family movie nights like before, they just stay home now to avoid expenses.

And it hurts to hear all these. My aunt is concerned, after breaking to her the news that mom can't come home to attend my capping, she was sad, she knew how I really wanted someone to be there although she will attend, but we both know its different to have someone from home present. But she understood as well as I do about the crises we're having. She is even willing to divide her food allowance for me, but I said no. "I can eat here at home", I told her. I don't need to eat outside all the time. I can bring food from home to school and eat at the canteen during school days. It sounds pitiful, but hey, sacrifices for my family are a big thing for me. It's okay to save on my part, than let my lil sis and bro feel the scarcity of things. And I'm sorry I can't be there. I know and I'm pretty sure when I'm there at least they feel a bit relieved that no matter how ill economy can get, they can still have fun because I can bring them to places and we can just enjoy traveling to places and take pictures with lil or no money at all. Gosh, I miss home.

(tears falling down my cheeks once again)