Happy Holidays

My first Christmas and New Year away from my family, whew! So this is how it feels being independent and on your own. It sucks. But I'm pretty sure I'll get a hang of things in the future when there will be more holidays away from home. Christmas wasn't that bad, I spent it with my aunt and uncle in our rest house in the province and my aunt cooked alot of food, there were a few guests, mostly relatives and a few people who comes just to ask for "pamaskwa" (Christmas gifts), monetary most especially. It's always like that when we go home in the province, the townspeople almost always comes by, share their "Maalaala Mo Kaya" stories and ends up asking money from us depending on how sad their story is. We are nowhere near politics and I know they are supposed to be asking those political people for monetary things but then I grew up in this environment, especially when my dad is present in the province, talo nya pa ang isang politiko! Our house in the province was always flooded with people so early in the morning, and its funny how I love seeing my family entertaining these people whom we hardly knew and yet they talk like they've knew each other from way back.

Gosh, I miss my times growing up. Danggg... am I that old? hahaha! Anyway, for New Year's Eve, we are just going to sleep it off, celebrate it in our dreams I guess, I might still be awake reading a book or something but I told manang ( my house helper), to just cook food tomorrow for lunch to celebrate New Year's Day. Anyway its only going to be me, her and my uncle here in our city home. I'll be video chatting my family in the morning because we are ahead 1 day here than in California. Still I'll be celebrating with their countdown, thanks to advanced technology!

By the way, I would like to thank all those who invited me to dine with them on New Year's. Thanks guys! But you know how tough it is to drive with all the fireworks going on in the streets. Thanks so much, I really appreciate it. (especially to Louren Chua and Isoevhel Faye Bernaldez and their families!) Don't worry, even if I'm home alone this New year, it will not stop the fever it will bring as 2010 rocks my world at it's best!

Stay safe everyone, and God bless us all this New Year's Day!

HOPE YOU HAVE A GOOD ONE!

Tired.

I am getting tired of playing his game but yet I can't seem to stop this craze. Why do I feel like I'm giving and concerning more about him than he does about me? Because that's the sick truth about this all. See, even I myself know about it and yet I'm letting this one slip away, again. It's probably because I have deeper reasons why I continue playing.

I always like to think he's the one. There! That's the main reason. The compromising "thing" is what I do best and I just wish he'd do the same for me. It's hard to love someone, who also loves you back but still you feel as if your love is still beyond or greater than what he feels for you. And then there goes the answer coming from him, " you just don't know how much I love you" rant that sometimes I wish to feel it rather than to just know.

It hurts not to tell anyone about this, literally face-to-face. But nowadays, it's hard to find someone who would listen and give sound advice without question and awful criticism eventhough there are plenty to crticize about. I have little pain threshold for those blows. So I just keep it here in my little box for the meantime til I can take a breather.

Thank God it's Sunday, my only rest day!

So our 2nd week of review ended with a bang, as the RGO Review Center gave an Acquaintance Party for us. And of course, not but definitely not the least, our 2nd lecturer was Mr. Michael Leocadio who is "medyo gwapo" in fairness. He is said to be the John Pratts look alike daw. Talaga nga naman, when you look at him for hours lecturing about Communicable Disease, para nga namang kahawig nya nga si John Pratts. Mas good looking pa nga kaysa sa artista eh. Kaya naman ang mga girls eh talagang nagaagawan sa mga bakla para makaupo lang sa unahan. hahaha, echuusss!

I liked his teaching strategy of photographic memory. He explains in simpler more specific the diseases by using pictures to better understand and aid our memorization. Ipopost ko sana dito yung sample pictures but then, since I'm a nurse (naks!), Right to Confidentiality is very important to me, kaya picture na lang ni Sir Michael with my friends. Me? nah, not very fond of being in pictures. Sa hitsura pa lang ni Sir, d nyo na aakalaing sumacumlaude sya. Oh bongga noh! Mukha pa syang bench model. hahaha!

Pero guys, mas gwapo cya sa personal!

I still have a lot of notes to rewrite, thank God it's Sunday, the only rest day I have since my week is always full and will be til the end of this last and final semester! Woohoo. I'm feeling it. Do help me pray that I can finish my scrubs so that I can graduate!

Opening of the In-House Review.. Dugyot!

Yesterday, Nov.14, was the start of our in-house nursing licensure exam review. It was a good start! Sir Mark Asuncion lectured the Comm. Health Nursing topic, one of the boringest topic but with him... it was never a bore, from 10am till 7pm, majority of the students were still full of life and energetically participating all throughout the session. Idol kita sir! Dugyot! hahaha. Sosyal pa ang aming review kasi nasa SM Cinema 1 pa, oh dba ang yaman na talaga ng new administration ng school namin.

Sir Mark // My friends Ann & Erl

Ang tagal naman ng Pacquiao and Cotto fight. Palibhasa delayed na nga dito sa Pinas, hehehe! I'm pretty sure my family in Cali already watching and will know who won, very soon... Haizt. Dami pa akong gagawin ngayong araw na to, mostly rewriting my notes and memorizing 52 and more asian countries for tomorrow's quiz on Asian Civilization. Imagine ha, ano kaya ang kinalaman ng Asian Civ subject sa Nursing? And to think they placed this subject on the very last semester. Pasaway talaga! hahaha, imbes na maluwag na sana ang schedules at mga scrubs at completion of duties na lang aatupagin ko, may mga pa drawing2x pa ako ng flags na dapat alalanin pa, hay naku! Kung si Sir Mark pa, DUGYOT! hahaha, expression nya kasi yun and I think if you know him, you can attest to that!

Cge mga mongoloids! Ta-tah for now.

I gotta feeling..

Wow, it's been eons since I've last blogged. hahaha! Obvious ba, nagbubusy-busyhan kasi ang lola nyo eh! You know naman, its the last and final semester before I'm totally done with nursing school, naku! napapakanta tuloy ako ng, "I gotta feeling..." ng BEP. Sensya na ha, just so hyper right now because I've choked down an espresso earlier this evening and thus it's 1am and I'm still up and about here in my room.

News? Well, first and top of my list, I want to congratulate the newly weds, my good friend Dom and his lovely wife, Roxanne. I'm happy they really ended up together, I mean, with all the drama before, who knew! hahaha. Congrats Dom, matanda ka na official na yan! Sorry I didn't get to attend your wedding ha, masama kasi ang panahon and dad won't let me travel. Echos! haha, sa totoo nyan Dom, wala akong pamasahe, ginastos ko na lahat sa completion duties ko for delivery room! So you can't blame me, I'm broke nung mga araw na yun. But nevertheless, I'm so very glad for the both of you, great pictures and here's one I grabbed from Roxy's facebook and friendster:

How cute right? Looking good together, forever!

Anyhow, I'm selling my 1973 Volkswagen for only 60,000 pesos. So whoever is interested, I'm just here just a holler away. Here's a picture:
There's more pictures if you're really interested in buying. Newly painted, well maintained and handlew with care for all these years yan. Certified.

Nowadays, I've been quite addicted to Farmville, Yoville, Cafe World during my spare time. I rarely open my Friendster na nga because I'm always excited to harvest, cook and decorate my apartment. hahaha! But I have to be more serious when our in-house review for the NLE board exam starts. Bukas na nga ang orientation. Just mentioning and typing the words NLE board exam gives me goosebumps. Quite nervous na ako eventhough the exam is not until I graduate next year, still, it's not something worth taking for granted. I spent 3 years away from my comfort zone just so I can have a good future and I'm not about to blew it up now nor later.

Hmm. By the way, I just wanna let you know that I jumped a 5-6ft waterfalls 2 weeks ago, and it was my first time ever to jump anything high! It took a lot of courage doing it but it felt really good accomplishing something out of the ordinary for a change! Phew! The danger it brings, awesome feeling. In picture, it doesn't look that high, but in actual scenario, dengg.. everything higher than my height is high enough for me already! hahaha!

Ambakan Falls, Guimaras Island

That ends my little run down of this I've done these past weeks of not blogging. I do hope I can update my blog more often. But then again, I might be hooked up harvesting and cooking and decorating again. hahaha!

xoxo, CEE

I'm Still Alive, Dont Worry

Wow, I never thought I'd be so busy when I got to my last year of Nursing school, I'm a senior already, yey! Although it's not as intimidating as junior year, still I find it hard to squeeze in blogging and my schedules. Maybe because I'm spending more and more time outside the house than before. I finally have a social life, other than going home directly after school. I have established that there's more things to do when I get a hang of things around.

Today, I've finally done justice to my toenails. I finally went to a salon and got my toenails done, I had a pedicure! Ahhh what a refreshing feeling seeing my toenails clean and polished with tangerine colored polish. hahaha, it's cute by the way! :) Other than that, I've paid my long overdue internet bill too. No wonder my net was a bit slow the past couple of days, it's because I haven't paid for the whole 3 months. Deng! Good thing they didn't cut my line yet, phew! I totally forgot about it, my bad.

Since I started my senior year last month, there had been an awful lot of changes in the classroom, amongst my classmates and friends. I see my friends in the other sections less and less although we text message sometimes, and my classmate friends are having a bit of a relationship trouble right now, 2 love couples in the "Jugings" circle of friends broke up and so it's as if the whole group broke up along with them which sucks because I had a lot of fun when I'm around these guys, though we have our differences, we always have one common ground, TRAVELING! And because of this dilemma it kinda tore the travel portion apart. Hope it will be resolved soon. We still have a lot of planned trips to discuss.

I miss my family! Sis texted yesterday that they were going to eat Halo2x at Chowking in West Covina, CA and joked if I wanted to go, silly Sis! hehehe. I miss Cali! The gorgeous weather! Arrggh. Here in PI esp. where I am situated right now, it's been raining a lot lately probably due to storms in some parts of the island. I'm not really fond of the rain as you can tell. Hehehe!

Well, so far that's all the update I could tell out in the open, some are of course private matters. I'm actually procastinating right now. I still have an individual nursing process to finish, and I need to study for the prelim exam on Psych Nursing on the 20th, which is fast approaching already! Yikes. Well, ta-tah for now, hope I snap out of this procastination tomorrow. I really need to start something or else I'll be cramming my butt off again!

Updates

A lot has happened between weeks back and today. Sorry to not update you yet because Summer Duty semester has started with a big slam. Gosh, tonight I went home from duty looking glum because I murdered the first page of the nurses notes and so I have to repeat it all over again! Good thing the so-called strict CI Sir D didn't humiliate me infront of the whole ward, jeeezzz! I didn't have any idea I was so toxic tonight. phew! I have low self-esteem right now. huhuhu!

Anyway, away from toxicity wise...

Before the summer semester started, I already enjoyed the early days/weeks of summer by having a series of island hopping just around the exotic beautiful islands of Iloilo. I really didn't go that far to enjoy my summer, yet it was all worthwhile!

April 2-5, 2009

It was a great getaway escape from the hustle and bustle of the city. It was a priceless adventure coupled with great people. Actually I was a bit shy at first seeing as I was the only 3rd year to a group of 4th year who just graduated Nursing last March 30 of this year. But later on I eased up as they were friendly and accommodating and were loads of fun!

Thanks for inviting me! I had the time of my life.

Trust Issues.

Not again. Liars. I hate being lied at, especially when it's too little of a thing to be lying about. Why do people have issues on lying to me when all I every did was be honest and true to them? It's one of the attitudes that I hate the most. It's an atrocious offense they could ever do to me because I'm one of the few people who actually understands and digests things before reacting and yet they still take me for granted.

This is why I'm careful enough of who to love nowadays because I don't want to get hurt anymore, it's tiring already. It's getting a bit predictable too. Those I love, take me for granted. What a day this has been for me. People specially dear to me, all committed dishonesty to the littlest of things. How can I trust them who cannot have the guts to face and tell me even though it might hurt me?

Liars. They are everywhere. My dad's right. I can't trust anyone.

Vamps.

Overall it was a good week except for some sucky quizzes I had. This week I found out that my best buddy is thinking of marrying his current gf already and that he's happy. Kudos for you tol! Hopefully she's the one for you na. Hehehe naawa na ako sa heart mo hehehe! Anyway, what else happened this week? My life is pretty much the same, my hospital duties were great I had this patient with Beta Thalassemia, it's a hereditary blood disorder wherein the body has inadequate production of red blood cells and thus he at a very young age, he had been exposed to blood transfusions every 1-2months just to keep him alive. It's a very sad case cause although he is coping up for now, I've read from the internet that there's just a slim chance that he will live up to the 20's-30's. Jeez.

Those people with this disorder are what I call the present-day "Vamps".

Well, well, well, what can I say, I'm glad I'm quite normal and so are you.

Good 'Ol Sunday

The CES (Community Extension Services), the org I'm in at school, attended the city government's medical mission today at the Jaro covered gym. It was a one-day affair hosted and sponsored by Mercury Drug Store. There were around 2,000 and more participants from all over the city who availed this one-day free consultation and medicines for all.

Our organization was asked by the city representative to take the vital signs of those said participants and so it was heck tiring. Imagine 37 of us CES volunteers taking temperature, blood pressure, and chief complaints to the that huge number of people, (hehe!) But it was a success! Nothing stopped us from doing the task and succeeding in it. Great job guys! We had free snacks and free lunch sponsored by Jollibee. The event ended at 3pm.

THE CES Volunteers w/ our adviser

I realized that being a nursing student and as well as a volunteer for the commmunity is a big responsibility but nevertheless at the end of the day all the hardwork has paid off because who can see that all those people had been catered with their needs especially most of them are not well-endowed. This is one the reasons why I joined CES. It's not ony because I got no better stuffs to do, but it's because I want to help other people, share my knowledge and skills to others who are in need. It's true that when I graduate I'd go back to the U.S. and work there for good, but these activities and experiences like this are worth carrying back to my heart. At least, I can also stay that although most of the time my life here in PI was boring, but when those times that I'm not bored, I help other people who are less fortunate than me.

bea, sol, emz and cee

Quick Recap.

Wow it's been a long while since I've visited my own blog site. (hehe!)

A lot had been going on that's why. First was the Dinagyang Festival, which of course, I mostly stayed home because I was sick with flu. Second was the Jaro Patronal Fiesta which I went to a friend's house and ate lunch there but boy it was hella traffic on the way! Third was the death defying Midterms, which I only found out yesterday that I passed, thank God! Fourth was the big Valentine's Day, big for those who had dates and boyfriends and girlfriends that day, including me. (hehe!) My date surprised me with everything that day. Oh and never forgetting that it was my birthday the day before that. (thanks for those who greeted and remembered!)


Fifth but never the least, was the celebration of our university week last week.
Phew, talk about jam-packed February huh!

Oh yeah, my bestfriend in New Jersey got engaged on V-day by the way! Way to go Bes! I hope your wedding will fall in a month and year that I graduated already. I don't wanna miss that one for sure!

Hmm what else? Asking about my lovelife? I don't have any hehe! But there's someone making my day less ordinary. And he knows who he is. So far that's all for the quick update. I'm sorry I have to fuse it into one post. But worry not, I'll try my best to squeeze a post or two every week. Bare with me and my "busyness".

Pardon another change of site name. I try sticking to this one. There are just so many pranksters and stalkers out there who can't accept what I write here. Gosh talk about them not having a life and bugging mine instead. Sorry people, I'm not exchanging with ya'll. Leave me be.

Ordinary Day, again.

Much has happened since I went back here in PI. First, of course the school started with me having a slight downfall on my quiz scores. Ugh. I can't seem to keep it up because it's beginning to be a hella lot of load for me. Too much details, and also one factor is the instructor we have, she's a great lecturer knew her subject very well, but danggg! She is bombarding us with too much infos that sometimes cause our brain cells to disperse in the air and look at her with blank expressions when she lectures for a hefty 10:30am - 4pm straight class (with a 30mins lunch break). But it's partly my fault too for not concentrating more on the subject matter because I had a bad start this year. I'm trying to hang in there and try to make my grades better. I'm going to work and study harder for this upcoming midterm exams, that I can guarantee. I don't like having low self-esteem everything the class go off and walk out of the class. Phew!

Right now, I'm blogging at the comfort of my 3rd home, a coffeeshop at the heart of the city. Hehe, I don't know what happened but my internet connection at home seemed to be malfunctioning again. There's unusually many people here right now considering it's a week day but I guess it's Chinese New Year people had early offs from work. Oh well. I really feel bored here in PI already. Everything has become ordinary, routine kind of thing. And it's not satisfying my appetite for adventure anymore. I want to very much get out of this place and go somewhere to recuperate and hyperventilate and just feel myself again.

But for right now, I can only keep my pangs to myself. Lots of it.

The holidays are almost over.

One more day and I'm off to PI again for another wonderful year ahead from school, friends and aquaintances. I think most you out there have made your new year's resolutions for this year already which is very good. As for me, although I'm fond of writing one every year, decided to stop writing them this year. Why? It's because I'm sick and tired of writing something I won't be able to achieve or accomplish anyway because nothing in this world every last. It's ever changing and take it or leave it, that's how life is!

So my resolution for this year is to have no resolution at all. Come what may! As long as I live my life to the fullest and enjoy every moment with people I love to hang out with and are special to me in one way or another, then I guess there's no need for any resolution to take place. Jeez, I know it's better said than done. You know what, I feel like a big part of me just wanted to just stay here and not leave anymore. With everything that has been going on before I left last year, I just wanted to run away from it. Again. You know how if you watched the TV series, "Gossip Girl" wherein if those social elites did something bad, or have wronged themselves for some reason they would just flew themselves to Monacco or Tuscany or to a boarding school upstate and hide or run away till they get bored outta their wits and go back.... YEAH that's how I feel right now.

I thought that this little princess has finally gotten what she deserves but want to know the real truth? She's sick with it and realized that "too much" is not good at all. It can rip your heart out and bleed. Ugghh, I'm sorry, I can't seem to end my blog post without being gory. Don't worry this will pass.

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Anyway in the lighter side of day, my family and I took a road trip to the beautiful countryside of San Simeon, California where there nest the famous tourist attraction known to the whole world, THE HEARST CASTLE. I provided you with the link to the site where you can find out more about it. But yeah, it was very nice there. It looked much more marvelous than how it was presented on postcards. Thank God for my sight and luck to have reached the dream of touring the places I've long ago drooled only on postcards.