HURTING DEEP

(dedicated to pjc)

Be mad at me now
For I've done nothing but care
For I've done nothing but love
For I've done nothing but protect
The person that means so much to both of us.

Though trouble and harm was done
I still don't have the balls to face you
Because as much as I want to
I might just breakdown and cry
So it's no use.

It hurts coz you're my friend too, before then
You had my back every single time
And eventhough,
I didn't talk much, you know when I need you
And you never fail to cheer me up.

I hate this mess
Because I hate myself for blaming you
When I know all you did was care for her
But see, I missed the target
You didn't tell me, I struggled and had the wrong intuition.

Don't think I didn't loved you too as a dear friend
Don't think I didn't appreciate all the things you did for me
Don't think I didn't care as much as you did
Because alongside, you're a nice guy, little rough 'round the edges
Yet overall, sincere and nice no doubt.

But tell me, why does everything hurts?