MY FAVORITE NUMBER

(featured on the "Random Thoughts Corner" of NewMaria)

I thought I got over you already, but when you showed up again 12 years later into to my semi-perfect life, I lost my ability to organize my thoughts again, it's like being back to the turmoil of thinking of you non-stop and of how after all these years you still know my whole name. Ironic when you said that you looked for me everywhere and how easily I believed you really did because as small as the networking can get, you still managed to find me in a free online service which I, at first, found silly to be even a member of it. But you've changed a lot didn't you? I can feel it... better yet I can see it from the thousand miles of distance we have from each other. I guess it was a good thing that we both are far from each other in location coz what if... we just live nearby all these years and without knowing that we did cross our paths on streets somehow you know, that would just be plain torture, wouldn't it? Yet I, being a hopeless romantic who believes in serendipity and fate and stuffs like that, wished we were near each other coz what if... you really belong to me and I to you and without really knowing that for sure, we would pass up the chance of really living the life destined for us.

But I can see your happy, happy where you are right now. I heard your friends talk about how you've done great things and I envy them for knowing who you really are while I just sit here and listen to stories I wished I had heard way way back before this moment. And how I wished somehow I was part of some of them too. 9 really is a crazy number. It's how old we were when we met and its how long memories had stagnated before us a year later. After that, I was always known to be a person who leaves special people behind either hurt or sad... and I don't want to be that person anymore so that's why I run and run from every opportunity there is in store for me in the love department. It's also why 9 is my favorite number, to remind me of you and to tell you... you're never forgotten as long as I live life my way.