So I did it, I told them. And they took it kind of smoothly actually. It's like they have been waiting for me to say something or anything. I felt like I was being punked for like a second there. They said there's no problem at all if that's my decision. I just have to make sure that I'm certain that this is where I want to go; what I want to do.
Then why do I feel guilty? I wanted this all my life, I've prepared myself for this day to come over and over that I've already memorized what I've been meaning to say to them, then when I said it all, it's like... huh, what just happened again? My friend said I should be happy because they understood. And I know I should be happy too because finally I did it. Then what's this feeling deep inside me that somehow felt wrong?
Probably the pressure of starting over and not letting them down is getting in my mind. I have a lot to prove you know, to prove that I've made a good decision. And plus, I'll be away from them, I'll be leaving the carefree life; the no-problem zone; the princess den.
WOW. I never thought this is going to be overwhelming...just thinking about it, is overwhelming. I guess this is it huh? What do you think?
5 comments:
probably you were expecting they would be negative about it, and you prepared a rebuttal but you were not able to use it. and in case they dont agree, you were ready to accept what they want you to do. yun siguro yung naramdaman mo.
at ito pa ang naisip ko...tumatanda ka na. hehehe! just kidding! they want you to live your life like you want it to be. sabi nga ng friend mo, be happy about it. aminin mo, takot ka lang. yun yung nararamdaman mo, hindi guilt.
Can I also play the devil's advocate here?
Could it be that deep down inside you're afraid that they'd say yes because you're so used to them saying no? Or perhaps fear of the unknown coz you're leaving your comfort zone?
Anywayz, I'm glad you've finally made your first step towards what you've always wanted to do for yourself. =)
u know what...lahat ng mga sinabi nyo, i think that's how im feeling. kse i dunno prang gusto ko na ewan na. hayy hehe.
thanks talaga. pati kayo tuloy naabala xa ka-weirdohan ko hehe. i feel like u know me already hehe. but really, u guys told me everything i wanted to hear, may it be good or bad. =D
xo kathie..would it be blogness monsters? bloggeristas? or just forget it? hehe. thanks kathie!!
xo kathie..would it be blogness monsters? bloggeristas? or just forget it?
you'll know when it's there ;P
heheheh
and you're oh so welcome and thanks too... :)
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