Sunday Blues

So today was another one of those, boring days where all I do is stay in the house and laundry and hear mass. I've been a house buddy since I got here in Cali again. I hate everyday of it but I don't have a choice because I need to review and pass the NCLEX-RN just in one take. I cannot make any other mistake of ruining my life by not passing it. That's my only gateway to every plan I have in the bag right now. I sent my application to the Board of Registered Nursing last week so hopefully they are already reviewing it by now but they still need to wait for a little more time for my transcripts and diploma from the university. So longer wait means longer pressure to pass it because I have an ample time to study and review and everything. But you know it's nauseating most of the time to review the same book, although different set of questions, over and over again. It's like my bible and has become my comfort zone. Everywhere I go even just to buy my deodorant in a supermarket I'd have to bring it with me. When I sleep, the book is just beside me. Hahaha. My target dates are Nov-Dec 2010. I have yet to attend review classes because I want to attend when it's nearing the dates I'm taking because I want it fresh in my mind. So I'm planning to attend review classes in Kaplan from Oct 16 - Nov 7 and then by the end of November or 1st week of December that's where I take my exams. By that time I'm sure I'm ready. I need to be ready. Although I can take this exam over and over till I pass...that's not an option for me, I need to pass one time only because I want my life back. Lifetime working and serving ill people giving them the best care then can have and I need to pay debts too. Since the economy is nearing its black hole again. Sometimes I'm afraid to read the newspapers because it depresses me even more. Sacrifice is the key to everything. Hanging on to your dream and never stopping till you reach it is what I'm after nowadays. Next year is a big year for me and so I have to start somewhere to keep it going . Love my fiance so much! He is also taking his local nursing board exams on December so we have a lot in our hands right now. So pray for us! Lord help us.