Chel & Mack's Wedding

I just witnessed another lovely couple being wed today. It was held at Diamond Bar Golf Course. A small garden wedding with 100 guests more or less with purple and black theme. It was simple, yet elegant and well organized. There are some wacky blooper moments but that's just how the couples were. I am friends with the bride and so thanks Chel for inviting me to your wedding day! Time flies by so fast indeed. I never knew this day would come wherein I'd be swarmed with wedding invitations because for me, this means, I am getting older, yikes! But kidding aside, this is the stage of my life actually wherein, our barkada (group of friends) are now expanding...by expanding I mean having extensions already, bringing their girlfriends, fiance, beau, and now kids. LOL. Sometimes, I just shake my head just imagining the days when we were just transcending into a young adult, all are carefree, but now, I look at them and I can say, damn, we are old. Sometimes I ask myself, am I growing old too? Coz from the looks of it, I am quite lagging in some parts. I kinda sometimes don't want to go hang out with them because it's by partners already and I have no pair. And I kinda feel out of place frankly speaking. I mean although I do have a boyfriend but he is miles away from me and it makes me wish that he is here and that pains me. Oh well anyway, at the party I got reunited with my girlfriends also,

Some asks, if I feel pressured seeing my friends one by one disappear in the singles' list and gets married ahead of me? Well, I sometimes do, I mean who wouldn't want to be married and be with the love of your life together side by side right? But I realized just recently that we will all get there at one point in our lives, it's not a contest and if I were to be married, I want to be sure on who to marry. I get involved with men too easily but no one really sticks with me till the end so it's useless too right? I need a man who is willing to fight for me no matter how hard and complicated the situation is, I need a man who will love me for myself not because I'm a better trophy girl, I need a man who will understand that I'm not perfect and that everyday will sometimes be a challenge and I want him to handle me with care. I don't care what background he came from, what his pasts were, all I need is to know the background and past so it may help both of us later on to compromise when situations drop on us, because I, too, understand that nobody is perfect and all of us have something to hide that we are not proud of. That's why I need an honest man who can stand up for himself and defend me to whoever stands in our way. Is that too much to ask? (Yawns....) Tomorrow is a brand new day again. Back to my review materials once again. One of my friends asked me awhile ago while we were eating dinner at the reception, "So what are you doing in your house? Don't you get bored? Go relax mhenn." I answered, "Hayyy....relaxing will always be there, but my dreams will not come true if I don't put an effort reaching it." He just patted me at my back and smiled.