Friends for Keep

A good friend of mine skyped me this morning and we talked for an hour. He just wanted to check how I'm doing and that if everything is well because he sensed that I'm not in myself lately because my quotes in facebook are "hella depressing" according to him. It was not the usual "being inlove me" kind of thing. I told him he's such a stalker and he said he just got concerned that something is up, and that I am supposed to be engaged and that I am supposed to be happy about it and yet, he found me depressing and so he just checked up on me. I told him my love problem and he was surprised. He said he never heard such a complicated situation and was surprised that it would ever occur to me and not other ladies out there who can care less about their lives. He never imagined me being entangled in a situation like I have right now because he said, "You, of all people, are among the smartest ones I know, but when it comes to love, you are such a dumb blonde Cee, and why can't they just respect you and treat you right like you deserve. Are you not letting them see the goodness in you? Why are they treating you like you are not worthy of their love? I'm sorry but everytime I listen to you I get confused why they treat you like this. Damn, you are one of the few who knows what love is because you see that everyday from your parents, you have an ideal family, you grew up with all the love in the world and now that you want to share it with others, why do they keep on dismissing and taking it for granted? And you, you love too much that's also one of the problems. That's why you get hurt so much because you don't leave some love for yourself." I cried. Not because he has hurt my feelings, but because I knew he was right. "Remember that ex-girlfriend of mine before in Switz? Yeah, I was ready to marry her but because we have differences in religion we keep having problems on who is going to convert to what that everytime we have conversations we avoid and avoid and avoid the problem just so we won't fight all the time? Well, time passed by and we haven't resolve that tiny issue, so everything was put on hold until it was put off and we seperated. See, even a little problem like that is not supposed to be avoided because avoidance will not solve anything. Like what I see in both of you right now, you are avoiding the issue. Not unless you face the issue together, you will carry that burden by yourself Cee. I don't know with you but you chose to be engaged to this person you barely know, what do you want me to say to you, nice things? Because this is not a nice move coming from you. Not unless he talks to you about this then you can see if he really cares about you like he says he does. Care is a big word. You can get lost in it and you end up assuming something that won't happen. So wake up sis." All I did was listen, and at the end of our conversation I said, "I hate you." "Thank me later when both of you finally solved this, women like you are hard to find, I hope he knows he is lucky to have you and he doesn't need to pride himself so much,, he just needs to keep loving you and help you not with monetary or finding a job but just treating you right. You two are nurses, you should know better that communication is the key to everything. If there's no communication, then you can't give quality care." "Oh shhhushhh, don't talk nurse on me." (He is currently in UAE, a private nurse of a construction company) I have a lot of friends in every walks in life, some lucky and some unlucky ones in their own lives. But there are really those whom you can call the "few good ones." Those few good friends of mine, keep me sane when everything else fall apart. I value their criticism because they don't look at me as just a shallow individual. They say to me things that will hurt but will be an eye-opener to me. I don't like friends who are just there to listen, I like them to talk to me when I'm wrong to tell me I'm wrong and congratulate me when I'm right. Those are the kind of friends I am happy to have. And most of them are guys sad to say. I've always been the eldest in the family, always having to set a good example to my younger sibs, so it's nice to have close guy friends who treat me like their lil sister, like one of their buddies and just reprimand me when something is wrong with me. And I have three brothers to whom I share and knows me the most, one from New Jersey, Cebu, Ilo-UAE. Good to have them.