Chuvaness

The mornings without you aren't that bad,
Now I can get on with life's wrath.
As I think less and less of you,
The path I want to go seemed a better view.
We have to admit that the bittersweet part of loving,
Is loving without thinking.
Coz it leaves us hanging hurt
Damn. Whatta jerk.

I thought about him today becoz I felt like I wasn't fair to him. I haven't replied to any of his text messages for I think two weeks straight now...but who's counting. I guess I just became bitter all of a sudden. I wasn't satisfied with the situation we were in. He said he would put in extra effort but where was it? I can't really feel it, any of it. So here I go again back into living up to my middle name, "Runaway." Im tired of putting effort or doing the best I can to something,so out of reach; so complicated; so one-way street.

They said that in order for someone to notice your existence, you should give them the chance to realize that you are somehow important to their lives. They will eventually feel that there's a part of them missing. I guess they were right, coz after three days of not texting, calling or whatever else, the tables turned. My cel was bombarded with tons of text messages and miss calls from him. I was gonna respond in a matter of two days but I dunno..there was a part of me that stopped me from doing so. Now it's been two weeks. Whatta jerk. Yeah guess Im referring to myself. *sigh*